Diphylleia grayi [Skeleton Flower]

Better Off

She was already being erased from him.

One day, the man, who had been enjoying his time by himself after breaking up with the woman, felt suddenly lonely.

As if it was the first time he had ever been alone. Sleeping, eating, or breathing alone gave him a heart-piercing terror.

He earned for someone to hold his hand.

Of course, it was not the first time the man had seen loneliness in his life. He welcomed the occasional solitude with open arms, and thus was quite embarrassed by this blatant loneliness that wished for someone else like never before.

What was worrying is that it seemed this loneliness might not pass with time, it might never fade away completely and stay locked within his heart.

In reality, the agony of being alone crashed around aimlessly inside as it cuts his heart. The man never could have imagined he would face such a brutal loneliness.

He needed the right kind of person.

Not someone to chat idly over drinks, but a person he could confide his childhood stories to.

Someone who was not loose-tongued, nor too quiet.

Someone who did not disregard his touches but did not hang off him all the time.

Someone who did not stress over language formality.

Someone who, would be the heat same as the sun and just cold as the snow, but smart as the wind.

Someone who bowed above the ankles but still below the knees.

He needed that kind of person.

He hesitated for a moment as he searched through his contacts. The woman’s number still remained there.

He wondered whether to press the call button or not...But he stopped himself.

They left each other for their best, so now he could not just call her to ease his loneliness.

A love nurtured from the breast of loneliness knows no fulfillment. He thought to himself how he would prefer to die of loneliness than to give birth to an ungrateful love.

The woman always listened to music before going to sleep. And so, from time to time, he used to whistle her a song.

The man settled for appeasing his loneliness with the woman’s old habit. When he turned on a song, one he had first heard around the time of their break-up, her face appeared dimly to him.

How could someone he had spent years together with, be this distant and faint, after only a few months?

It's because she was already being erased from his heart and mind.

She was already being erased from him.

Chapter End Notes:

So we can both rest at peace, leave me and go.

Chapter prologue:

I indifferently look outside the window today, no
I feel languid and my heart is cloudy,
I can’t see you
I’m only fiddling with my cooled teacup baby

Like a child going after a fantasy, yeah
I loved you so I said that I was happy
But in my growing heart, you are getting more distant,
It’s getting harder

Leave me and go, leave me and go,
Put away all of our memories
Leave me and go, leave me and go,
Stained with your tears
Leave me and go, leave me and go,
The exhausted love
So we can both peacefully rest,
Leave me and go, leave me and go

Like fools, you always only looked at me
And I only looked at you so we didn’t look ahead
In front of us are different roads but we just found out
That we can’t turn things around

For many days, I will look at your picture
And you will look at my gifts and we will shed tears on them
What will remain of a love that has ended?
Let’s make it so at least our memories stay

Leave me and go, leave me and go,
You turn around first
Leave me and go, leave me and go,
Throw away this bad love
Leave me and go, leave me and go,
Someday, I hope you can softly smile
At our memories

Leave me and go, leave me and go
Leave me and go, leave me and go
Leave me and go, leave me and go
The exhausted love
So we can both peacefully rest

(Why won’t the long
Stretched time catch me
I wait as I prepare
For a future with only worries
I leave your name
In my notebook called Life
As I write down a memory,
I turn a long page
Putting the words I Love You far away,
Mixed with sighs
I’ll think about it
As I hide my sadness
I’ll bury it inside my memories
So we can both rest peacefully)

Leave me and go, leave me and go.

🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸

[BELOW IS THE BEAUTIFUL MELODY_
BETTER OFF by_SHINee]

I'll also recommend " Please Don't Go by jjongyuu"
Jinki and jjong duo is an unofficial duo yet with an official chemistry

💌Some say's find that one reason to stay instead of giving 100 reasons to leave, but if you are suffering then that one reason is unreasonable to hold you back🌸
Stay if you want🍀, leave if you wish🍀
Today too rest well, jaljayo ❤