You don’t see how this affects me
You don’t see how much I want to leave
You don’t see anything that I see
I’ve been falling apart
I’ve been finding a way out
I’ve been feeling so much in my heart
NO ONE knows that I cry at night
NO ONE knows that I struggle to hide what I feel
NO ONE KNOWS that I’m scared.
I’m scared for soo many reasons
I’m scared of death
I’m scared of being different
I just want a normal life
I want to feel normal
I want to have a normal family
Nobody seems to notice the scars
The scars on my heart
Or even the ones on my arm.
It seems to be irrelevant
It seems to not matter
It seems like it’s a joke to the world.
My thoughts are a jumbled mess
My emotions are all over the place
My mind keeps going back to the past.
I want a dad that I can trust
I want a mom I can be proud to have
I want my parents to be there
But they seem lost in their own world
He seems too caught up in bullshit
She reminds me too much of Toni.
Do they even know how much I struggle?
I struggle to say what I feel
I struggle to be heard
Believe it or not but I struggle in school.
I’m never going to be the perfect daughter
The perfect friend
The perfect anything
I’m not little miss perfect.
I’m just a teenage girl trying to find a place in this world
Just trying to get by
Trying to be seen by the people she loves.
It’s whatever
Life goes on
I move on.
