late night thoughts

dec 23rd 2018

Its 11:32pm right now and I'm listening to the saddest of slow gorillaz songs. Everything seems blurry. All colors of the rainbow smudged onto the camera lense that is my eyes. That's good. Ill use that in a story. Anyway, Melancholy. Big thing right now im really sad and I don't know why. I feel so chill yet so tense and stressed and sad. I'm laying in my bed with my cat and I think to myself, how do we exist? Why? Why is it whenever I listen to a fictional band I fall in love with nobody. Someone is no one. I feel like there's someone I need to tell how much they mean to me and how much I care. How much id love to tell them I love them. I dont know who. Gorillaz is fucking with my brain. Plastic beach seems like such a depressing but chill place... I wanna go there yet our whole planet has kinda turned into a plastic beach. My room seems so calm right now. I could sit in here all my life and be fine with it. And honestly I wanna. Sit with my cat listening to music and crying. Anyway.  Bye I don't know when ill update this book.. Whenever i feel like Shit I guess