To Serenity

- Chapter 1 -

- Purpose -

' I sit down under a tree

there i could see

how much breathtaking it all could be

to ever feel complete '

~Althea

I felt my breathing start to regain its composure after all the running

I sighed, and wipe my sweat, feeling tired and sad from that scene..

thoughts about what had happened in the park rush back towards my mind

as it hurt my head, making it throb in pain

tears started to well up on my face as i stopped infront of a cave

feeling as if i'll be secured being there rather than the place i used to call my other 'home'

limping my way inside, all the sounds i could hear coming from the cave are

faint water drops, and the emptiness yet warm atmosphere they give in

i felt the pain slowly go away as i walk over to the water in the cave

the more i look at it, i noticed the water is actually pretty deep despite living in a cave like this

i gulped, feeling as if the scene was nostalgic from what i had experienced before

unbeknownst to me, a drop of tear started to fell in the water

i wipe them away, knowing that my mind can feel the pain of nostalgic memories

but i cant remember them..

i then sighed, flopping down and fix my notebook bag while brushing my hair back

feeling as if ive became sleepier in the cave from all the crying

i then fell asleep.

All i could hear was faint giggles, and happiness

'what is this feeling?' i whispered to myself

never have i ever remembered i used to feel happy before.

there i saw myself when i was a kid, playing with a cute doll that i remembered i stitched and modified myself

it was two cute dolls.

the one is purple head and the other is green head

i smile to myself remembering the times i used to save up my lunch money just to buy materials used to make my own doll because my parents wont give me one

seeing the little me makes me wonder what she's going to do next

the little me then stopped giggling, and suddenly the atmosphere changed as the girll stopped playing with the dolls

"...I dont know what to do anymore.." she could see that the girl is trying not to shed a tear

it somehow made her heart ached, knowing that she hates it when she cries.

i feel as if the girl has nothing more to do, maybe its because she only wanted to make a doll to play with for her self satisfaction

and nothing else after that