i'm so done with living. i want to be happy with my friends, have fun and just not be upset all the fucking time. i don't want to feel hurt, i don't want to feel like a mistake, i don't want to feel like THIS anymore! but now i know that's not gonna go anytime soon. i look at myself everyday in the mirror, and i don't see what everyone, or most people see. i'm so fucking fat and ugly. everyone else is so pretty, what about me?
that's one reason why i don't really want to to a "face reveal". because i'm not pretty or anything. i'm ugly. keeping myself alive with pills, fake smiles and crying hurts. it just hurts. all i want to do is get better and live better without any worries about being bullied or constantly worrying about my looks etc.
i don't want to be seen as dramatic, stupid, fake or anything because of my many mental health disorders. i want to be seen as a good friend or at least supportive. but that's not gonna happen is it. now all i actually want to do is leave this earth. i don't want to breath anymore. i don't want to hide behind a fake smile anymore. it's all too much.
...but it's fine. i'll be gone soon. 🖤
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Non-Fictionthis book is just me ranting about shit that goes on in my life {warnings} cursing mental health suicide
