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The week went by . Me and Cameron spent all week getting to know each other . I went and looked for jobs since of course i wasn't going to let Cameron let me live there for free even though he insisted . He doesn't live with his parents . He moved down by himself to get away from the gangs in South Carolina . His past was very wild . He doesn't look like the type to be involved in gangs but he surely was all in the mix back in South Carolina
. The day after Cameron took me in , I actually charged my phone and i had 294 missed calls from Amber 1038 Text messages from her . I felt bad for not filling her in sooner but i wasn't in the place to think about others . I told her everything that was going on . She agreed for me to take the rest of the week of . She bought me my work to Cameron house everyday after school . So i didn't really miss a lot because i was all caught up .
It's the weekend and me and Cameron are bored in the house . We want to spend our last few days of our " break " having some fun before getting back to school . My eye cleared up a good bit . Just a bit purple on a some parts but Amber bought me some makeup to cover it . Me and Cameron came to an agreement , Every night we switch our sleeping environments so he won't be on the couch the whole time . We've gotten pretty use to living together kinda even though i still don't have much clothes . I'm going home today when no one is there to grab a few things so i can stop using Cameron's .

It's time to go to my house , My parents are at work . Cameron is taking me over there . I need to spend as little amount of time in there as possible .
Cameron drive over there . It looks empty from the outside . I run to the door and open it , It's unlocked , strange . " Aaliyah !? " I hear from upstairs . Dang , Someone is home . My parents come running down the stairs asking me hella questions about where i've been and why i haven't come home or called or why i haven't been in school . I ignored them and rush up to my room . I quickly grabbed a bag and put everything i can grab into it . I grabbed another bag and grabbed my hair stuff and i made sure i packed enough shoes that'll last me until i get a job and i can buy me my own stuff . I grabbed my book-bag and my phone charger . My dad come rushing into my room
" Where do you think you're going ? " he asked . I looked at him " Home . " it was the first time i actually called Cameron's house my home but it's the only place for me now . He rush over to me and grab me " i'm sorry , don't leave . i won't do it again . " i just snatched my arm . " i forgive you but i can't stay here . I will be at school on Monday morning don't worry . Your perfect little child won't miss any school days . " I say while grabbing my bags and putting them over my shoulder and into my hands . " Where are you going to go ? " He asked . He was beginning to start getting angry so i started walking faster but he walked faster the more i did , so i stopped and turn around and say , " I said i was going home , a home where i'm accepted for who i am , a home where i'm not forced to be who i'm not . " I turn around and keep walking . Then i hear the words i knew was coming " You just want to be out there and whore it up don't you ! You're wasting your life ! You're never going to amount to anything without us ! You're not our daughter anymore if you walk out that door you slut ! " My dads words rung through my ears . A tear ran down my face and i could hear my mom " Please baby ! Don't go . He didn't mean it . " I spoke 3 last words to them before leaving " Yes he did " and then i walked out and never looked back

I got into the car with Cameron and told him everything . He was shocked to hear what happened . I told him to drive so we can go back home . I just want to forget that place . Forget them . I want to start my life over , move on , finish school and get out of this state . I get to Cameron's house and Amber is waiting for me . She and Cameron helps with the bags and i bring them into Cameron's room . Me and Amber sit on the bed and i explain to her everything that happened and she was just as shocked as Cameron . She then said " So you're living with the new boy . Are y'all a thing ? " she asked smiling . I just shook my head " We're friends . I'm grateful for him to let me live in this house for free , not for long, but for free . I just need someone there for me . I don't need an relationship . " I said the purest way I could . She smiled and hugged me . " I'm glad you're handling this so well . " She says and then she leaves . I sit on the bed and begin to watch some tv . I lay down and Cameron comes into the room , " Can we talk ? " he asked . I sit up and say of course . He sits on the edge of the bed and start " I know we've been getting to know each other a lot lately , you know about my past and i know about yours . What i didn't tell you yet is that , My past can sometimes come back to haunt me and i don't want you to be caught by surprise when it does come . I need you to be ready . I'm saying it's going to happen i just don't wanna see you hurt , because i care about you . " he says with sad eyes . I looked up and said " what do i need to do to be ready ? " i asked . He grabbed my hand and we went outside and he showed me how to untie a rope when it's around our hands , and he made sure to remind me where the good places to punch and kick at . I felt like we were training for a MMA fight . I paid attention . I listened .
When we finished i went inside and washed up and started to clean around the house , I just kept thinking about my family , my parents , my baby sister . I wouldn't say i wanted to go home but god i hate this empty feeling in me . I'm broken because of my parents and i don't know if anyone can fix me .