Hinny

Chapter 5

Harry's POV

I awoke suddenly to a scream. I shot up and looked to see Ginny panic stricken. Her eyes wide.

Me:"Ginny what's up? Is everything ok?"

She pointed to my bare chest. My right hand consciously touched my chest as I looked down. There on my chest was a scar. Unlike the one on my forehead this one was a large cut across the left side of my chest. I caught the writing of I must not tell lies on my right hand. I had forgotten to cast the disillusionment charm last night. I looked over my battered and bruised body before looking back at Ginny. She wasn't supposed to have seen this. And I couldn't erase her memory to make her forget. I wouldn't do that to her.

Me:"gin this is nothing. Your tired go back to sleep."

Gin:"Harry I am not tired. How is it I haven't seen these before?" Before I could answer realisation seemed to dawn on her face. "Harry James Potter have you been casting the disillusionment charm on yourself so no one can see your wounds?" I nodded slowly. Ginny gave a strangled gasp. "Why would you do that?" She asked quietly as tears began to run down her cheeks.

Me:"because I didn't want anyone to make a fuss. I didn't want to get them seen. They remind me of what happened and they keep me grounded. I'm selfishly happy with you and moving forward in life. All them people that died and left loved ones behind they can't move forward. They can't be happy. Keeping these marks makes me remember how many died and so I can't move forward. It tells me that I'm being selfish by being too happy. I knew you wouldn't see it like that so I hid them. But you drive me so crazy in a good way and you make me forget all the bad things. I tend to forget a lot around you and I must have forgotten last night."

Gin:"Harry. We only fuss because we care."

Me:"I know but you shouldn't care."

Gin:"Harry..." I cut her off.

Me:"no Ginny. You shouldn't. Uuurrrrggggghhhhh! I have stuff to do."

With that I quickly got out of bed and rushed into the bathroom. I caught a glimpse of Ginny. I'd made her upset but I couldn't do this right now. I looked down at myself again. The scar across my chest was where the killing curse had hit me. The bruises and small cuts caused from the spells Voldemort and his followers had thrown at my limp body. The writing on my hand from my fifth year. Umbridge had caused that. Professor Dumbeldore had told me the scar of that would never fade. It had been imprinted too deeply. I sighed heavily before having a quick shower. I accioed my suit as I wasn't ready to face Ginny and quickly threw on my clothes. I cast the disillusionment charm once more then walked back into the room to see Ginny sat on the now made bed. She was pulling on Teddy's pants. She looked towards me sadly as I entered.

Me:"I have to leave with Neville to pick up his parents. We'll come back here then leave for hogwarts together."

Gin:"Harry you haven't eaten."

Me:"I'm not hungry." Then without looking at her I walked towards the door and opened it. Just as I was about to step out she said something.

Gin:"I love you Harry." I sighed dejectedly.

Me:"I love you too Ginny."

Then closing the door behind me I walked down slowly my eyebrows furrowed. I knew I had hurt her but this is something I didn't want to discuss. Even though I knew I eventually had to today wasn't the day. I walked down to see mum rushing around the kitchen making breakfast and neville Luna, hermione Ron Fred and George sat around the table eating breakfast.

Me:"ready to go Neville?"

Mum:"Harry dear. Have some breakfast first."

Me:"mum I'm really not hungry I will eat later ok?"