Secrets and Lies: A Girl Broken

Moving Too Fast

Alright so , I had just turned 17 and I was growing into my body I finally had hips and was shaped like a coke bottle , but wit this shape came this vicious mouth and attitude. I heard the same comments all the time about my mouth . My mom always told me " yo mouth was going get me in trouble one day " . At the time , I was coming into the house whenever I wanted too. Shit in my head I was grown asf and who was gonna to tell me different. It was Sep 18,2014 I was at my cousin Lisa house sitting on the porch on my phone. Her boyfriend sold drugs so it was all type of niggas in and out they crib all different but it was this one fine ass nigga that caught my eye , he was tall dark skin nigga wit dreads. He got out the car and GIRLLLL he smiled at me teeth so white and than licked his lips . I dropped my head so fast i was nervous , if I was light skin I probably would have been red.

He walked up went in the house first than he came out & said "what's yo name" & knowing me I had to get smart I said " WHY?". He smirked and said  " you gotta attitude on you , I like that" . I laughed said " my name Yavonne " he took my phone out my hand i yelled " NIGGA DID YOU PAY FOR THAT PHONE" he said " girl I could buy you 100 of these mfs " he put his number in my phone and said my name " Eric , text me". He pulled off fast in his Cadillac trying to flex. 😂 I can't lie he had me smiling hard I went home and we had been texting all night until he finally asked " how old are you" now I knew he probably was old enough to be my daddy but I didn't care I hated niggas my age they were so childish . I said "18" he replied "I'm 38 Is that too old for you baby "I said nah I'm grown. We had been linking every weekend but always in groups of people until Nov 2, 2014 he asked me to get a room wit him so of course I did I was falling for this man so , I got there about 9:30 but I had no idea what I was walking into Eric was rolling some weed and drinking at first we was laughing and having a good time until he started to do a couple of lines .. YES COCAINE I knew Eric did it but I loved him and who was I too judge him. My phone started going off and he was like who tf is that " I said nigga chill my best friend Drea "  but he snapped started yelled " NA I KNEW YOU WAS A LITTLE HOE " I yelled NIGGA STF___ but before I could finish this nigga punched me twice, pushed me down and busted my lip I was so shocked 😳 blood was leaking everywhere on the carpet and all over my shirt. I couldn't do anything but cry Eric picked me up and put me on the bed . He said " baby I'm sorry I love you I promise to never hit you again". That was the first time he said he loved me , Now I should have got my shit and left BUT he pulled my pants off and began to eat me out and gave me the best dick 😩 I mean I creamed in less than 5 mins. My legs were shaking and the way he made love to my body was amazing. He had me just where he wanted me I couldn't let go at the moment because my soul was being snatched , The next morning he dropped me off at the end off my road . When I got home my mom asked what happened to my lip and I said I got in a fight wit some girl at a party. I didn't tell my mom bout Eric she always hated that I fw older man and I did not wanna hear this long ass speech about the cons of fw a older nigga. So, after that night I had been ignoring all Eric calls and texts he was BLOWING ME UP but there was no way I was gonna be wit someone who hit me. A couple weeks went by and I hadn't seen my period or Eric so I called my best friend Cierra to bring me a pregnancy test. I told her to look cause I was to scared to look and slick didn't even wanna know . Cece just stared at me wit this concerned look on her face and her mouth was literally wide open . She didn't even have to say anything her look said it all .... I was pregnant but before I could process it all I heard loud music coming in my yard I'm like wtf. I looked out my window and it was Eric I'm like wtf he doing here , what do this nigga want. Remind you I had been ignoring him and just found out I was pregnant wit his baby . Before I could get to the door my mom opened it and yelled " WHAT TF YOU DOING HERE" I heard Eric say " TASHA ?". In a confused tone.  My mom screamed out " YAYA GET YO ASS OUT HERE NOW " I'm like OH SHIT HERE SHE GO BOUT TO START TRIPPIN CAUSE HE WAY OLDER THAN ME. I walked out my room and the next thing she said would changed my entire life. She said " YAYA WHY IS YOUR DADDY HERE"😱 I had just turned 17 and I was pregnant wit my daddy baby.😔