excitement and nervousness written on both faces as jennie and lisa began a "confession session".
note: everything italicized is a throwback.
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lisa
ah, i've waited for this night to happen, i'm glad that i did because i can see the outcome later after jennie and i have a talk once we started eating and drinking.
thinking about it makes me wanna die in happiness, i'm just.. i'm just really excited that i even smile like an idiot from time to time seeing jennie in my mind.
i think i prepared too much for tonight actually, the room is surrounded by lit candles to help with the mood, then i cleaned my whole place which happens rarely. i also cooked jennie's favorite pasta and made a milk ice cream, makes me damn proud of myself.
for some reasons i thought of having some wine over the table as we share some stories later. it looked simple but the ambiance is somehow romantic, which i wish jennie wouldn't really mind though, so she wouldn't have a little hint.
i looked at my place and mentally high fived myself for doing a great job, i think after i confess my feelings for jennie, we'll just have a really great time.
i just sat on the sofa, watched tv and waited for jennie to finish her solo photoshoot before she arrives here. well, other than waiting and watching, i also couldn't help but reminisce about the things that happened between me and jennie.
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after training hours at yg company, i decided to go out and just walk along the busy streets of korea.
it's fun here, and i'm actually learning a lot as a yg trainee so i kind of enjoy the struggles i go through everytime i'm in the company.
though, i miss my family back in thailand and i'm worried sick everyday for them, aish. remembering them in little ways, i instantly feel sad and just wished i could fly to thailand so easily as if i'm a superhero.
this is it, i'm about to cry again and i hate that feeling. i feel really weak and alone, especially i don't really have close friends back at the company since there isn't any trainee who came from thailand.
i sat down at an empty park bench, feeling my knees getting weak. oh how i miss mom and dad too bad. immediately, my tears fell, i've been here for barely a month yet here i am, still not used to waking up everyday without my mother and father.
and then suddenly, a hand touched my shoulder. i looked up to see who it is and i recognize her as a korean trainee, the one who raps if i'm not mistaken.
"hey, use this." she handed me a pink handkerchief and while my hand is shaking, i grabbed it gently to wipe my tears and thanked her.
she sat down beside me and looked at me. i got.. well how do you say this? captivated? i don't know, i just realized i stared into her cat-like eyes with hazelnut brown orbs that resembles a magnet because it has this attractive feeling.
a moment later, i felt her thumb brush my cheek, wiping away the tear that fell from my eye. it was so soft, i don't know why i suddenly got too sensitive that all my senses were like super active i could feel and describe every inch of her.
"don't cry now. oh, and i'm kim jennie by the way, also a trainee back there." she gave me a warm welcoming smile, immediately melting my heart.. wait.. no.
