"Absence makes the heart grow fonder," a wise man once said.
"Absence gives me a new point of view," I rephrase.
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I have never changed more in my life. For one, my self-esteem has gotten to the point where it's either a mountain, a valley, or just plain nonexistent at any given point in time.
Moreover, I have been rejected rather rudely by my crush-and former friend- Kanashimi Aiko.
After about a year of us being enemies, I learned that there was a nice stillness in the empty spaces that he left, much like sitting on the rooftop of our school at breaktime. Nice and silent, and somehow really appealing to me.
Sometimes, I don't miss him, you know? The times where i feel that, It's usually after another barrage of insults. But the times where it isn't, I feel better about myself.
For one, it's because the thoughts of him lessened. It used to be a disease, plaguing me at all hours. Now, it's receded to occasional dreams and random thoughts.
For two, I no longer have to worry about wether he likes me or not. I already know that he hates me. Well, the least he can do is act decent to me, but hey, humans are weird.
And lastly, because I've never felt more accomplished in my life.
I'm not saying that our friendship was entirely a bad thing, but i am saying that my crush on him weighed me down a lot. My crush on him made me a damsel in distress, and without worrying about wether he liked me or not, i was happier. I was free. I was able to get a few steps closer to my dreams without the extra burden of my obsession.
I wouldn't mind if we ever became friends again. I wouldn't care if we just stayed this way. The only way to know is in the future. And even then... Wouldn't there still be this absence? This stillness?
People can't stay the same forever. I couldn't agree more. He couldn't have proved it more.
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Isn't that right, Kanashimi?
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A/N: Y'all should I make a Prequel to this? If so, what should the title be? I still can't believe that I did a double update oml 😮
