"He- .... he's gone?" I never imagined hearing those words coming out of my mouth. Then again I never imagined talking about Jay when I said those words.
" Its go..." Corina started. But of course I couldn't let her finish that sentence.
" Dont." Everyone looked at me confused.
"Don't say it's gonna be ok! You don't know how I'm feeling!" Everyone's face slowly turns to shock as they comprehend what I just said.
" WE ALL KNOW HOW YOU FEEL! WE ALL LOST HIM TOO!" Corinas face was now bright red.
" OH REALLY ! DID YOU SEE HIM DIE! WERE YOU THE CAUSE OF HIS DEATH!! DID HE SAVE YOU! NO! I SAW HOW HIS BODY LOOKED UNDER THAT CAR! IF IT WERENT FOR ME! HE WOULDVE STILL BEEN HERE! IF I HADNT HAVE FALLEN FOR HIM MAYBE HE WOULDNT HAVE KISSED ME THEN DIED! YOU CAN FORGET BECAUSE IT WASNT YOUR FAULT! IF WE HADNT HAVE KISSED WE WOULDVE WALKED AWAY NOT BEING APART OF THE CRASH! SO YOU CAN JUST AS EASILY DROWN OUT THE PAIN AND FORGET. Not him of course. You can shut of the pain. If you wanted too. Every time I close my eyes I see that image of him under that car. Knowing I did that. And I can't fix it." I was full on bawling at this point. Everyone had a sympathetic look on their face and Corina finally came close to understanding, but no one will understand. No one except anyone who has been through this would understand.
" Hey. Remeber the day you met him." She said lightly chuckling. I knew what she was doing and I'm forever grateful.
FLASHBACK
"Sally. I need you to work with Jay for now." I knew by the look on her face that this guy is gonna cause me trouble.
"Ok. Mrs. Louis."
She motioned for "Jay" to come sit next to me.
"What are you some kind of. .." I knew he was gonna be sarcastic but I don't want that from him.
"look if your gonna call me a nerd or a dork. I know ok. " I said equally as sarcastic as him and attempting to hide my smile, but I failed miserably.
"Ah. So you smile too?" he said chuckling.
"of course I do why wouldn't I?" I said really laughing.
" what am I gonna do with out him?" I asked Corina. It may seem like a rhetorical question. But I was dying to know the answer no one could tell me.
YOU ARE READING
What If It Were Me
Teen FictionSally and Jay started off not aware of each others existence, but once they were forced to work together something clicked. but within each day, something grew. There romance would've been unforgettable, if. . only they could've saved him in time.
