Book of Random Thoughts

Chapter numero uno:

I don't know but eh, something and somewhere to put down my thoughts, I could actually just make a journal, actually, this'll be my journal and I'll put the date at the beginning of every chapter/entry

Well, today is December 29, 2018, almost done with 2018, don't know what 2019 is going to be like, speaking of year, when and why the hell is everybody whining about the LGBTQ+ community? And people in aforementioned community whining as well? I mean, I'm not religious, but it's kind of annoying really, as long as I don't have to deal with idiotic guys/girls/attack helicopters/whateverthefuckitisnow, then it's all good.

But that doesn't matter really

Anywho, I got a funny story! About, say, 4 days ago my girlfriend broke up with me! That was an interesting thing.

So I'm a super sensitive guy, anybody who knows me personally (4 people) would know that, emotionally and mentally, but not in "'you're a faggot' so I go cry" kind of sensitive, I mean "'I'm a fake lying bitch who took advantage of you and hurt you and I don't give a fuck about you' and I silently cry" kind of way. In person, I'm a joking kind of guy, I make crude and horrific jokes and am a general asshole, mostly on purpose, but it's all for laughs and my friend know that and it doesn't bother them much, I was kind of raised that way, 'nother sad story there, anywho, when people get to know me more and talk to me more and stuff, they start to realize: "holy shit, this kids actually fucking broken inside" and holy shit is right...

I know you may be thinking "oh, but that's everybody's thing! Every emo asshole is that way!" And you would be somewhat right.

Except for that I'm not a genuine asshole, I cover my pain with crude jokes and such because it makes me laugh and such, I'm an asshole because it makes other people laugh as well. And I don't know how I've had as many girlfriends as I have. I mean, I'm not attractive, I'm pretty fuckin' ugly, so meh.

But when I like somebody and I respect them, I'm actually pretty fuckin' chill, but I am anyway. Ok, how about I'm more open and less prone to flip my shit over little things. And I'm more, Well, respectful.

I'll cut this here, I'm update this again tomorrow maybe.. I don't know 🤔