Regret (Completed)

Milan Part 3

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Part 3 (Last)

Arnav couldn't concentrate on his work. He couldn't bring back his mind from Khushi and her words. He is understanding how much his words had hurt Khushi. Because Khushi he knew is not whom he is saw. He is feeling guilt is eating him up. He couldn't understand how to rectify his mistake. He couldn't understand what to do to bring Khushi back to their lives. It's been two days since he met Khushi. He tried almost every second to talk with her, but surroundings didn't help much.

He so wanted to go to her home, which he came to know from Aman's enquiry. But he stopped himself from, thinking Khushi may not like him invading her privacy. But he wanted to sort things. He wants her in his life as before, as his chirpy and shy Khushi. He informed his parents about meeting Khushi here and told them that he will come along with Khushi how much time it takes. Understanding his thoughts and pain, his parents gave their acceptance along with suggestion to not to force Khushi.

Arnav sighed in pain and desperateness, looking at the outside from the window. He can see the hustle bustle of the traffic. His eyes stopped at the bus stop looking at people getting in and out from buses. But what made him think is, their comfortableness of using crowded public transport. Their way of living the life. Their way of looking and dealing the situations in different way. ‘I wish I am also one of them. I wish God didn’t bless me with these comforts and luxuries. Then I wouldn’t have said those words to Khushi… I wish…’ Arnav sighed.  Suddenly his eyes caught the incident happening in the bus stop, which took his breath away and rage filling his body. He felt someone punched on his chest seeing his khushi being teased by few eve teasers.

All the employees in the office looked baffled seeing Arnav running out in jet speed. Aman, who saw Arnav, followed him in a blink. Arnav rushed towards khushi and held before she fell down on the road. When Arnav saw tears of pain in Khushi’s eyes, he couldn’t control his anger towards the boys. Before he does anything, Aman stopped him showing Khushi, which controlled Arnav’s anger immediately. Arnav helped Khushi and brought her inside the office.

“I’m sorry Khushi… I’m really sorry” said Arnav after making sure that she became normal after that incident.

“It’s not your fault, no need for you to be sorry. And anyway, it’s not new thing for me. It happens with me almost every day” Khushi said, palming her paining leg.

“No… it’s my fault. It’s completely my fault. If I would have told you about my feelings that day, then it wouldn’t have happened now. If I would have told you that why I didn't want you to go for your job leaving us, then it wouldn’t have happened. If I wouldn’t have uttered those words to you, then it wouldn’t have happened. I’m sorry Khushi. Whatever crap I uttered that day, was completely wrong. I never meant those words. I thought if I told you the truth about my feelings for you, you might take that as pity and reject my feelings. I couldn’t let that happen. So I thought if I show you the problems you may face then you will understand and will stay back. But in making you understand, I made everything a mess. I did a grave mistake, which no one, not even myself can forgive or forget. But still Khushi, I am selfish. I was a jerk, and may be still am, but I can’t stop myself from loving you.

I know I did mistake by uttering those words, but can’t I hope for your forgiveness? Can’t I hope for the life with you? Can’t I hope for forever together with you? I am just a human, Khushi. I’m not defending my mistake. I’m trying to say that I am regretting my mistake. I’m hating myself for whatever I did. I guess you faced a lot in your life, but trust me Khushi, I am not happy in my life too. Without you, my life is nothing. I was just like a living corpse khushi. Other than NK, no one was there for me. Everyone abandoned me for whatever I did to you and I know I deserve that. But still KHushi… this heart couldn’t stop hoping for you. This heart of mine is waiting for you. This heart of mine, will not be heart if it don’t get your love. Please Khushi, please tell me how can I get you back in my life, how can I rectify my mistakes, how can I live my life… tell me Khushi… what should I do to get your forgiveness. Tell me khushi… please…” with that Arnav burst out crying. He vent out all his pent up pain before KHushi. “Trust me Khushi… I’m regretting it. And this guilt is eating me up. I can’t take this anymore. I’m not strong as you. I’m not good as you. Please help me to come out of this pain… please help me Khushi… please…” he held her hands and cried his heart out