shawn pulls out of me, and we both collapse onto the bed, both of us sweaty and out of breath. he turns on his side and tilts his head to kiss me. he lifts up the covers and reaches down, taking off his condom, "i really wish we didn't have to use these." he mumbles, tossing the rubber in the bin by the bedside table. he lays back down on the bed and wraps his arm around me, "goodnight, baby." he whispers.
i lay there, eyes open, my back turned to shawn as he spoons me.
he said he doesn't want to use condoms anymore, basically hinting at me to sacrifice my time for birth control. no one wants to be on birth control, especially not me because i really don't have the time for that dedication.
i sigh and close my eyes with the thought of changing my body for shawn.
-a few days later-
"hey babe, where you going?" shawn asks, lifting his head up from his phone after noticing that i had opened the door.
"uh-i'm-uh-i'm gonna go grab some coffee." i lie, i'm actually going to planned parenthood.
"oh ok, will you get me an iced green tea please?" he asks with his bottom lip sticking out.
i chuckle, "yeah, it might be a while i-uh-have stuff to do for work." i lie again.
"ok, see you later, love you." he says then returns his attention to his phone.
"love you too." i respond, closing the door.
i exit the condo and walk to the parking garage, trying to find where i last parked, because my usual parking spot was taken by some asshole the other day.
i get into my car after struggling a bit to find it, put the nearest planned parenthood into the gps, and drive off.
-
"hello." i politely greet the receptionist, finally getting to the front desk after waiting in line for so long.
"hello, ma'am, full name?"
"uh-y/f/n"
"ok we don't have you in our computer, so i'll need you to fill this out," she says handing me a paper, pen, and clipboard.
i take it and look down the top reads, "medical records release." i walk and sit in the first empty seat i see then begin to fill out the paper work.
-
"ok, so why are you here, today?" a nurse asks me.
after returning the paperwork, i was brought to a back room by a nurse and now here we are.
"i-uh-just want birth control." i say, some nerves getting a hold on my words.
"oh ok, and i'm assuming this is your first time?"
i nod.
"and why would you like to be put on the pill?" the nurse asks me, crossing her legs.
"my boyfriend and i no longer want to use condoms." i say with a slight shrug.
she nods, "alright, i can prescribe you to the pill with a lower dosage since it is your first time."
i nod back.
"and how old are you?" she asks me.
"i'm 20."
"ok," she says grabbing a clipboard and paper, writing a few things down.
"alright here you are, just go to your nearest pharmacy and they will have everything for you." she tells me with a smile.
"ok, thank you!" i say and get up from the chair to open the door.
"no problem, have a good day."
-a week later-
"hold on, baby." shawn breathes onto my lips, breaking the kiss. "we need a condom."
before shawn reaches over to get one from the bedside table drawer i stop him by pulling him down. i kiss his lips and quickly break the kiss.
"what th-" he confusedly mumbles.
"shawn, i'm on birth control." i blurt, both of us somewhat out of breath.
"what--really?" he questions, his eyes show some type of excitement but his face show confusion.
i nod. "when did you get birth control?" he asks me sitting up.
i sit up too, "i went to planned parenthood the day i went to "go grab coffee"." i say with air quotation marks.
"what?" shawn frowns. "why didn't you tell me? i would've came with."
"honestly shawn, i don't know. i just wanted to get it over with. i wanted to go alone."
he nods, "if they had a pill for men i would be right there to take it, baby. i'm sorry."
"but look on the bright side," he suggests and bites his lip, "sex is gonna be fucking awesome now."
"it wasn't before?" i question, squinting my eyes.
"it was awesome, but not fucking awesome."
☆★☆★
a/n: lowkey a cringe but we won't talk about it
have a good day ♥
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