Love is not Over _JJK ||Completed

Me

Seemed like Jungkook became shocked as he didn't tell any word.
'About my past...I haven't tell you about my past...have I...'
I faced him and tilted my head.

'But Y/N...past is the past now...it's-'
'Jungkook please...I feel like to tell you this...can I..'
'Ah..why not..you can tell me anything...okay..'
Jungkook smiled and pinched my cheek making me also smile.

'Y/N...what happened...'
'Ah..'
'You're silence...'
'Actually...I don't know where should I stat from...'
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'Ah..okay...as you already know I lived with my parents and my two siblings...my parents has business and...*sigh* were we a happy family...I dunno...my parents haven't time for us but they gave everything....everything but freedom....freedom of moving with the society....we couldn't be with friends....go out with them...or just walk to school...we were treated with all the facilities...like caged animals...we grew up with a silver spoon in our mouths...'

I stopped for let out a long sigh and gather some strength.Jungkook was silence behind me.I could feel his warm breath on my neck and his warm body was touched mine against my back.His right hand was intertwined with mine.I looked at our interwined hands.

'...I had a dream...a dream to escape from that cage..to be free from all those things and be myself...but my fragile mind didn't let me...I was an obedient child who agrees with anything that my parents tell me to do....I hate myself....my obedience...actually it was not obedience....it was my biggest weakness...'

I felt my eyes were filling with tears...I felt pity about myself...how poor I was...I even hated myself....

'Once my parents came to me making me surprised as they never had time for us...I was very happy...but it was not long lasting....they had come to me to tell me that I was going to marry in two years...they had arranged everything and they told me to get ready for your marriage..that was all they told..I couldn't believe my ears...I screamed my lungs out telling that I won't do it...and I argued for change their minds...but they didn't move a bit or didn't show any react for my words...I fought with my everything but...I...I..agreed to be married....as I couldn't help myself to be an obedient daughter....as always I did...being an obedient child...huh...I hate even that word...'

I gritted my teeth and I felt a pressure on my back palm.It made me relax and reminded me of he's awaking with my feelings.

'... I felt a relief after I found out that he's a playboy...as I knew my parents never would let me marry a person like that...*sigh*but I realised that I hadn't understand my parents clearly....they told me that whatever happens I should be married to him...unless their company would not give us the contract...I felt my body was burning in front of their words...I wish I was deaf...not to hear those freakish....that my parents are going to make me marry to a jerky  playboy just for a contract...like I was an assest....after locking myself in my room for three days they found me in depression and with the help of their money they brought me back...after all those things I thought they'd change their minds but....no...it wasn't that easy....huh....they valued their so called business than me...and my feelings...they didn't care at all...and...I wanted to play my cards....I wanted to see my dream come true...I bet my fragile mind and left my home....I wanted to escape...escape from that golden cage...and when I pass the departure lounge I could feel my heart was pounding of happiness...happiness of being disobedient...it was my first time...'

I closed my eyes and still I could feel that pounding...I felt the tears over my cheeks and a warm back hug.

'Do you miss them...'

'I dunno..but I don't want to go back...I don't want to see them again....'