Is it enough to love a person from just a simple gesture? That he made you so special yesterday and then the next he treated you like a stranger. I mean is there a kind of friend that gives you the look? The other 'look' like you can't explain but you feel so nervous everytime he looks at you? Yes that kind of look. I both love it and hate it at the same time. I love it because it's like we have a secret conversation with each other and I hate it because it gives me the feeling of twisting my stomach and the nervous feeling. I hate it. I really want to say this to him in personal but I can't so this is my only of my true feelings for him.
Sep. 24, 2017
Villa Callamity, Jaden St. New Orleans
Dear Louise M,
"Hey. I love you by the way. It's real and not a joke. I love you and at the same time I really really hate you. And I do hate you. I want you and at the same time I can't. I want us to be more than friends and just be real with ourselves but we can't. It's just flirting and a dream. An impossible dream. We have this feeling like we can connect but again we can't. We are like two magnets trying to stick with each other but there some kind of force that it's stopping us. It's our what if's, denials and friendship. It's like were made for each other but destiny won't let us be together. I'm saying this now because I still got time before where back to being strangers again, Louise. I love you and I really do. But it's not working and sick of this. You love me. I love you but there is somethjng blocking between us. Last. Louise Quinston Macbeth. I Louie Laurelle Kingston promise to be your friend but won't promise that I would stop loving you no matter what even if your in love with someone else.
Love,
Louirelle K."
