covinsky one shots 💌

real feelings

I still couldn't remember how everything had happened. At one point I was just Lara Jean: the girl who loved romance books and baking, and the next moment I was a new version of myself. I had been transformed into Lara Jean: Peter Kavinsky's girlfriend. What started off as a simple love letter I had written as a child, it had turned into a huge change in my everyday life...
***phone buzzes***
Snapping me out of my own thinking, I read the screen and instantly recognized who was pulling me back into reality.
Peter K: Hey Covey.. Are you busy tonight?
I quickly tried to thing of an excuse, but another text popped up.
Peter K: I'm outside your house, so don't even try to lie.
I gasped. Even though we hadn't really talked in high school, Peter knew me. He knew what I stood for and could always predict my next move. I guess that scared me in a good way to say the least.
—
As I made it outside to Peter's car, he had that award winning smile plastered on his face.
"Well hello my beautiful girlfriend." he said to me.
I told myself it was all part of the ruse. He had to say these things. Right?
"Hi." I said sheepishly. "What are you doing here?"
"We are going on a date." Peter said.
"Why? I mean it's not like you're required to take me out Peter. It's not in the contract."
Peter looks away for a second. "Even if you don't see this as real, I like spending time with you Covey. You're real, unlike half of our high school, and I would rather hang out with you than most people."
He looks up and we make eye contact. Eye contact that is too deep for people who are fake dating. I look away and stare at the ground.
"Since I just poured my heart out to you," Peter laughs, "Can we please go to dinner?"
I laugh and for the the first time in a while, it is genuine. Peter has brought out a certain set of traits in me, that I haven't experienced since my mom died. He makes things unpredictable, daring, and I like it. I like it a lot.
—
After we finished our food, Peter and I were simply just talking about life. Suddenly, he leaned in close, and there was barely any room between us.
"Lara Jean, I really like spending time with you."
I leaned in close and whispered "I like spending time with you too."
As we sat there, inches apart, something inside of me snapped. As we sat on this fake date, I realized that everything I felt was real.
But I had to stick to the contract, because for Peter this was just a plot to make Gen jealous. Nothing more than that. But as I sat across from him and watched his eyes on me, I had a slight feeling there could be more.
—
Peter drove up to my house around fifteen minutes before my curfew. As I started to get out of the passenger seat, Peter grabbed my hand.
"Please don't go yet" he whispered to me, while still holding my hand.
I froze and looked at him. There was nothing I wanted more than to stay with him in the car, but we had to stick to the contract.
"I'm sorry, I really have to go. Curfew."
"Your curfew isn't for a few minutes. Why are you running away from me?" Peter said.
"I'm sorry." I said as I stepped out of the car.
—
I didn't want to leave him in the car, but I had to protect my heart. I wanted to tell him so many things, and just be with him. But I knew how this situation would end up. I would end up hurt and alone, and who the hell wanted that? As I stepped into my house, I instantly collapsed and sat against the door. And then it hit me.

I had real feelings for Peter Kavinsky, and they weren't going away.
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[sorry it has been so long my friends and sorry this is like the worst au ever...i'll be posting more soon!! 🥰 ]