i felt used, I felt hurt. "IM THE BEST HE'LL EVER FIND. No one finna love him as much as I do. No one finna wait that long for him like I did. No one finna stay while he treats them like crap like I did. No one finna be there like I was. trust. And I kno for a fact he finna think about me in a few weeks and miss me. While I'm doing good, growing, gettin money and being at my best he finna be missing me. He finna press pause on his life and think about me. Yeah he might not be sad like I am rn but it don't hit niggas as hard until they kno that the girl that would've done anything for then is gone forever. I'm sad rn but watch me get better. Watch me."
This was my mentality a few days after our break up. This my my mentality now.
"Jay, I thank you for giving me half a year of growing. I don't hate you because we ended or because you lost feelings. I've got this peace in my heart, I feel renewed. The night we ended and while I was bawling a sea out, my God told me that I'll be okay. The love I got from him was the best feeling and I hope that you get to feel the same way one day. I hope that the person you give your heart too next holds it as close to them as I did, I hope they learn about you and wanna give you nothing but love. Right now I'm gonna start just praying and giving God most one my time. I love you and yes I still miss you but we're better separated. And I hope you're doing good."
I'm trying too fall in love with God. I wanna be ready for my husband.
This gonna get better, this is just my little brainstorm.
