Mind of Madness

Mind of Madness

I'm locked inside my own head,

I keep screaming,

Hoping that someone will hear me,

My brain keeps begging for forgiveness,

For the things that my hands keep saying,

But inside,

I can't help but feel no sadness,

For the loss that is my mind,

The darkness that is my head,

Screams in pain,

It's hard for me to say,

That every day isn't quite the same,

I'd like to believe that I'm not lost inside,

My own mind,

That's a lie,

And I think you know that,

It's a fight with myself,

A fight that I could never win,

A fight that caused me to lose myself,

A long time ago,

It's a path that I still walk,

Wishing that I knew,

How to leave,

I've told stories,

For over a decade,

And even now,

They still haunt me,

What did I do,

To live in such a world,

That people would call hell,

But it's that hell that's created,

From the memories,

That haunt me so deadly,

I'm excited,

But my grip on reality is slipping,

I don't know how much longer I can hold on,

My mind keeps wanting things,

That aren't there,

I'm locked inside my own head,

Screaming,

Hoping that someone will hear me,

Only to know,

That It's a fight within myself,

A fight that I can't win,

A fight that I won't win,

A fight where,

I'd die trying,

Because if I can't save myself,

Then what's left in this world,