SPACE BAR (MARK LEE )

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The wind blew from the south as I sat beside the window. He was following me and sit behind me. I dont know if I'm ready to let him in. Just this time maybe.

I sighed and look down into my shoes. I was playing with my fingers when he tap my shoulder. I look back and he was so close to me which I stop my breathing for a mili seconds. Stop this! He ain't no special to me but he makes me feel something unusual.

He lick his upper lip as he spoke "You know what? You always look blank "

I blinked. "I-I am happy " I pulled back and faced the front. "I'm happy with myself"

"But I never asked you if you're happy or not"

Don't make this any harder Lee Minhyung. He's not a stranger actually everyone knows him. Who wouldn't when he is the topper of the school? I heard he is also rich, but he's kind enough to not boast about his will. He has the Lam' but since he is also a kind-hearted person, he chose to go by bus for today. He is also h-handsome. He is good at English since he was raised in Vancouver, Canada.
Actually I totally envy his life but I never know that he's this type of person. I really hate him! I want to be him.

"Stop! it was you who asked me random question and now you're playing like you don't care " I throw back.

"Woah.. Cool! You really did spoke like that! " I can feel he is smirking while he say that line. "I always believe that you're nothing but a liar! "

I gasped and stood up. Thank god! I've reached my station. I quickly went down.

"Looks like Im correct! Anyways, I'm always right about you" He spoke as he followed me.
I got slow down with his words. I believe hes just trying to annoyed me but he can't say like this as if he knows me.

"You have no idea! "

"I know you're not some innocent girl. You're just acting like one. You're nothing but a liar and I hate you! " his voice got louder as he speaks every words.

I stop and look back . "What do you know about me? Now tell me! What do you know about me??! I know I'm not perfect and what do you expect me to be? We are not even that close what do u think of yourself? "I said it while my tears is threatening to fall down from my eyes.

He stop as well when he heard my voice gets louder.
"Are you okay? I mean I was just playing-"

"What? Okay? Playing? What do you mean? " I asked him while glaring him.

"Okay cool bro I was just acting and I'm sorry I didn't this will hurt your feelings. I always thought of you as a babydoll."

I blinked as realization hit me. What have I done? It's not my fault . It was his.

Without any words I ran away from him until I reach my colony. I was breathing heavily from run and my body turns as I felt a hand pull my wrist. I am now again facing the same person. His sharp jaw. His brown eyes. His full lips.

"I'm sorry again for that " he bow. "I never thought of making you cry and I'm sorry. "

I just look at him. Am I really overreacting? Over him?

"I-Its okay. " I looked away from his eyes. " I shouldn't have taken you very seriously and I'm also sorry if I make a scene about the matter. "

I looked to our hands. His white milky smooth big hand is grabbing my wrist and he didn't let go of it.
I pull back my hands but his grip is way stronger. I look back at him .

"I'm not letting you go until you forgive me! " he look into my eyes. With his two brown orbs and my two brown we make a perfect four eye contacts.

"Stop this! I think we are too over reacting " with that i pulled my hand and run into my porch.

I think we are really overreacting over this. How silly of me? To think of him like that? I am changing my moods from bad to good by now. How can he effect me like this? This is so wrong!

The reason why I avoid to fall in love is I'm already facing a sexual abused and my parents aren't living together anymore. I don't want to be like my mother. She is such a fool to let my dad to come around everytime he needs her but will again left her and stay with his wife. I have a brother and its from the step mom. Dad introduced us his son and I was feeling okay when the brother was living with us. But until that night he sexually abused me touch me, slap me. I feel so disgusted with myself! I couldn't come up saying he abused me when he is not actually living with us. He is way older than me as Dad was having an affair with the woman when he married my mom. Then after I was born he revealed the truth and make our life miserable. Mom opened a grocery store to feed me and my study. Dad never bothered to come with us and Mom as she is blind in her own love she let him in and then she will again feel broken with her decision when he left her.
We are too weak to not let them in. Mom works very hard and yet she will waste it when it comes to dad. She wants the attention from my dad it's obvious that she really loves him and I hate him for that. Why can't he just let her in and say the same word? Why? This is the main reason why I hate guys and my step- brother he had done it with me many times when he wants to do it he will do it. And Mom doesn't know about this and I don't wanna tell her as shes taking a medicine. I don't want to be a pain in her ass. Kang Jisoo is his name. Fortunately , he have not been coming to our house and he stops his things also.

You have no any idea Mark Lee so stop this! I suddenly feel like crying when I remember what Jisoo has been doing with me. He did played me as a toy. My eyes feel warm from the tears.

I lay into the bed and cried till I sleep.