I still love you
Because you used to be my friend
You used to be a house I would run to when the world was an ocean and you were an island
And so I still love you
You are a silhouette of a boy
He used to say he hated my nicknames and smile when I used them
And he was my family that I built myself and he was sacred
I can't not love you
And so I answer your calls
And I tell you how much I miss you
I miss my friend
My best friend
Who did things only an enemy could do
Who hit me where it could only hurt
And made me so different from myself
And made it impossible for me to hate him
And so I love you
Because I don't know how to not
