Going through a break up is a hard situation to go through. In some cases, One is broken dealing with the pain while the other; easy to get away with it. The other case it never worked out for both of us can't let you go but to find a way to stay away from you and keeping us away of hurting each other.
I was finishing watching a movie at 11:30 when my ex gf texted me to give her a ride home from her friend's house. As I arrive I brought her back to her Apt waiting for her because she had told me she was gonna get ready to go back to her friend's house because they were gonna go to Flagstaff. So she goes in her apt. Minutes later she texted me if her black shirt is in the car. I replied with a yes so she texted me she will come back to the car and get it. While I waited I grabbed her shirt, I stretched it out as I smelled her scent, it just brought me back a lot of memories.
I'm outside in the dark looking up in the sky with a tear in my eye and talking to myself while listening to Lo-fi music inside my car. " When I use to love you, when I use to kiss you, when I used to treat you like a real lady. In the night we would fall asleep in the car after a long day spending time together as I look at you sleeping would melt my heart to love you even more, giving you my love filling you with kisses all over you, touching you so gently my fragile little cute one. I miss your love you were so kind to me I like how you would hug me back telling me how much you really love me more than anything else. " (As my heart started to hurt and hugged the shirt) "Im gonna miss those days with you. I'm gonna miss us, what happened to us. We said each other cute things, expressed our feelings together now everything has been thrown out to the trash like if nothing happened. All because you wanted to be alone because you were confused and lost. I have respect your decision I gave you spaced, I said to myself for how long will this last. While I still love you, you would turn your back not giving a dam about what I say. I understand what you are going through but why do I have to go through this makes me think I don't deserve to be with someone when I said to myself one time in the pass that my happiness with a girl never last. I always enjoyed every second every minute every moment being around with you; Its now gone my babygirl.
(She comes and open the door to get her shirt, she quickly saw me I act out normal then she leaves)
A minute later she texted me saying if I was ok I replied with a yes I am ok. When truly I was trying to let her go. I said to myself "The little bit I let you go, the more it hurts. But I know it's worth it. "
Earlier before I went to pick up Bella I was advice by a friend to not rush things and enjoy life because I'm young. We talked a lot and also made it to open my mind. Her advice helped me a lot I had thanked her for being their for me now I know what to do next and I will keep it to myself but to stay up and be a brave men.
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My Struggles In Engagements
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