I said to my previous writing
He's next to perfect
He's a kind of man I fell
That is different from the rest
That is so good to be true
But when our love goes longer
It never feels the same
It never feels right
It made a pang on my chest
That it feels like I didn't exist anymore
It breaks my heart
We are in this tie yet I don't feel the spark anymore
I don't feel the diamond that I felt before
I thought we can make it as we go longer and deeper
I thought our lovestory would make a history
A history that describes the ideal relationship
But, I was wrong
Everything is not constant
I felt ashame of myself
It feels like I'm the only one who value it
Who value our tie
But as time goes by
There were many happenings that I've experienced
And one of it was to share our courtship
On how we come up to this kinship
As I shared our story
It feels like there's an angel whispering to me
Or something poked me and said
"Hey, you have gone so many memories
Including your happiness and hardships
Don't give up on him
Just give him time"
As I have realized that, I just say to myself
"I will just hold on to our memories
I won't make decisions that could make me regret
If it's meant to be then be it
But Lord God, help me what to choose"
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LDR