IF YOU DON'T WANT TO READ SOME SCARY THOUGHTS I WOULD SAY THIS CHAPTER AIN'T FOR YOU i am writing to help me get my feeling out because lately i been feeling like i just want to die and maybe finally find peace. i just so tried of everyone blaming me for everything that go wrong in their life like when someone food goes missing the first person they ask is me and when i tell them that i did not eat it they get all in my face saying no one else could have ate it and in my mind i just like maybe you eat it and forgot but no that not the case it was here and now it gone so of course Maddie ate it. and then people playing with me knowing they playing with my feeling but just don't care how i feel because they get to live out their lie that oh yeah i still care for you and will always be here for but then turn around and talk about me behind my back and when i find out you want to lie and say oh yeah i sorry i just didn't know how to tell you. well i have a way you could tell me OH YEAH I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU THAT I THINK YOU A PIECE OF SHIT AND WOULD LIKE YOU TO STOP TEXTING MY PHONE AND CALLING ME see like that so hard and i would say okay fine thanks for telling me that you don't want to friends anymore and i would leave you be. And then we move to school i change schools so that i could get out of a bad place and finally be happy and not feel like i going to have a panic attack every time i walk into school with all the eyes on me pointing at me laughing and saying things about me to their friends. But i try to act like it don't make me sad. But for some reason Jesus don't want to see me happy so after a few months of finally being able to feel like i not about to have a panic attack every time i go to school he put in my sights some girls who think they rule the world just because they own apple products (honey no you not paying for that phone or watch or whatever new apple product there is your parents do) and we right back where we started with that crashing feeling on my chest of that i going to be the laughing stock of some kid snap chat video or picture i thought i finally find a place where i could breath. all i want is a safe place to land and not end up on face in a pile of shit so i have been feeling like i just a waste of skin but then i have to remember my friends that actually do care about me or my mama and my god mama and it give me hope, hope that one day i will wake up with a smile on my face and not feel like a waste of a person.
I KNOW THIS WAS SUPER DARK BUT I HAD TO GET IT OFF MY CHEST BUT GIVE ME A WEEK OR TWO TO GET BACK TO THE HAPPY PERSON I KNOW I AM AND THE NEXT TIME I WRITE N THIS BOOK IT WILL BE A HAPPY CHAPTER NOT THIS "I FEEL SO SORRY FOR MYSELF"
BUT I HOPE EVERYONE HAVE A GOOD WEEK AT SCHOOL NEXT WEEK AND YOUR WEEKEND IS GOING GOOD
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The Story Of My Life🤐
Non-FictionThe real life story of how the right people can change you in a million different ways good and bad, this will be like one shot a different story every time will be good and some will be sad and very dark i writing this book as my dairy about my life
