The Way Out

I still remember that night..

The night I lost the one thing I was proud of...

my innocence...

Aunt Helen was gone at work, like always. It never was anything new. Her boyfriend was downstairs like always waiting for aunt Helen to come home. I never really liked aunt Helen, but the man she had definitely didn't deserve her. She was a huge bitch, and hardly spoke a word to me. But he didn't even deserve that. He was a poor excuse for a man. I refuse to say his name.. so for now I'll just call him A for the letter of his first name.... I had just hung out with Derek, my best friend of 3 years. Being 17, you could say I did have some feelings for him. But, I had a feeling he didn't feel the same way, so I never approached him with my feelings. We were better off as friends anyway.

I took the backdoor so I didn't have to see A's face. Even before what he did to me, I hated him. He verbally attacked me, got drunk, and shot up drugs right in front of me. He disgusted me. I went to my room and kicked of my shoes. I was tired due to the tickle fight Derek and I had. That was always something we did together. That boy always had me smiling like an idiot. He truly was my best friend. He was the only escape from this hell hole I now called home. Ever since my parents died I've been distant from everyone except Derek. He made me comfortable. He helped me through this hard time. Man, did I miss my parents like crazy, to say they were great parents would be an understatement. They were special. I never thought i would lose them in a blink of an eye. But I did.

I went in my bathroom and took a shower. I turned the water on extremely hot and sat. Shower help me relax, and every night I take a scorching hot one. after getting out, I looked in my mirror. I guess you could say I was pretty. I had long dark brown hair, nice set of lips, and my favorite thing about me, my beautiful blue eyes. I get comlimented for them alot. I never need mascara with how long my eyelashes are. I go to my closet and change in to my usual. Pajama shorts and my band tee. I layed down from having no energy left. I guess staying up, and watching that marathon of Teen Wolf last night, wasn't that good of an idea. My mouth is so dry, and I get to the point, where no matter how much i want to avoid A, I have to get water. I walk downstairs slowly and quietly knowing he is in the living room probably shooting up right now. If he sees me when he's high I know i'm gonna get it. I creep into the kitchen not making a peep unitl... CREAK! "Heather, get your ass in here!!!" A screams. GOD DAMN THESE OLD FLOORS! i know i'm in for it.

I walk in the living room, and of course my guess was true, a fresh needle layed there, empty, next to A. "What the hell do you think your doing?" A yells. I want to punch him and scream at him, but i've learned better. "I was just getting a glass of water." I reply as calmly as I can,but i guess it wasn't up to his standards. " DON'T YOU DARE HAVE AN ATTITUDE WITH ME YOU LITTLE BITCH!"

A has never physically abused me, but he has to my aunt. I didn't expect him to abuse me physically so I was surprised when he stood up and pinned me to the wall. I was really scared at this point. "I'm sorry! please stop! You're hurting me!" I yelled. "You don't like this very much do you? Well I figure your not gonna like what I'm gonna do to you next." A said. I froze. I was terrified. A threw me on the ground and started to take off my shirt. "NO! NO! PLEASE STOP!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. "Stop you crazy bitch, you're only making this harder for yourself!" A explained. my shirt was off now and, he was starting to take off my pajama shorts. I kicked and screamed for what seemed like forever until exhaustion took over. I knew I couldn't fight anymore. I was naked and he was taking off his pants. I knew that this was it. I was going to be raped. I gave up. He was too strong. I lay there crying my eyes out while he had his way with me. I was in pain physically and emotionally. I was a virgin, and that made this that much harder for me. I was losing something I was proud of, to a monster. All you could hear throughout the house were my cries, and A's grunts.

After he was done, I ran upstairs, packed a bag, and ran away. I knew this wouldn't help anything, but i couldn't stand the life I had. What did I do to deserve this. My parents were dead, My aunt, the only family I had left, didn't care about me, and I was just raped. RING! RING! RING! I look down and reach for my phone in my pocket. I was just getting my breathing under control. Still crying slightly, I picked up my phone. "Hey Heather!" It was Derek. I don't know why I felt like I had to do this, but I decided to push him away. I didn't want to see Derek and I didn't know why. "Heather, is everything alright? Why are you crying?" He asked. "Derek, i want you to stop calling me, texting me, or visiting me. You will never see me again, and I don't want you to." and with that, I hung up. I don't know why I did that. I guess i just didn't want my mess of a life to get him. He kept calling over and over again until I just turned my phone off. As, i wander in the streets, crying, I see a figure approaching me. Normally this would scare me, but now i didn't even care. "Hey Darling, what's wrong?" He tried to touch me, but I pushed away his hand. "Hey its okay, let me help you. You can trust me. My name's is Josh, and I'm here to help you. What's your name?" He asked. Not knowing what else to do with myself at this time of night, in the cold, I replied "Heather." "Well Heather what seems to be the problem?" Josh asked. He seemed nice, and I needed help. Not wanting to open up about my rape, I said, "My life sucks, so i ran away."

"Well come with me, and i'll help you. You can live on your own two feet with me. No assholes will be controlling your life. Come on, I'll get you out of the cold. I was freezing so I decided to go with him. He was nice I guess.

Little did I know, Josh wasn't nice, I made the worst mistake going with him, and the asshole controlling me would be him.

-I'm a new author and I know it's short and may suck, but it's just a beginning chapter, and an explanation. Plese stick with the story. I promise it will get better. THANKS FRO READING!

Love, Alecea <3