The air is colder and where I lay stays empty I could hear my erratic breathing. I still can't feel anything. He's gone. He will never be in my arms ever again. I told him to not leave, to not go into the army. I was so scared that something like this would happen. I wanted him to be happy and do what he loves. I blame myself. Maybe if I were a better girlfriend maybe he wouldn't have left. Maybe if we didn't meet he wouldn't have gone away. Maybe if I tried harder when he was boarding to leave maybe just maybe we wouldn't be so far apart. When my end approaches, my breathing will falter and will end forever I will be with you and love you again my love...
Sorry that this is so sad...all I've been kinda feelin is sad... I've been saying to myself maybe, a lot lately like maybe if I didn't do certain things, things would be different....but yeah 💙
