Nathan was the one I could talk to when I was feeling scared, or lonely, or just needed a talk.
We gave each other strength when we thought we had none left. He became my best friend all in less than a year. We did some random stuff that best friends do. Sang in really off-tone voices to classic songs, played mini golf, watched movies, heck he even tutored me in trig.
You've all seen those chick flicks where the girl falls in love with her best friend. That's me. I'm the dumb, idiotic girl who decided it was a good idea to get myself in too deep.
I could remember every single memory ever shared with you because you completed me, you still do. Because even though I've only known you for less than two years I'm crazy over you.
From the moment I looked into the beautiful blue balls of pure bliss I knew that there was no going back.
I've stared into those eyes every chance I got from then on. I'm not scared of eye contact.
When you told me you liked her I broke. Broke into a million pieces. I stared at the wall for three days only getting up to use the bathroom. I was a complete mess.
Who knew you could fall for someone so fast. I did.
I watched you love her when I was lonely. I heard you play to her when I had no music left in me.
I watched you fall to pieces when she stopped loving you.
But I never did.
The only thing I could do was comfort you Nathan. I mean what are best friends for.
I promised myself I would not say any of this to you because I was sick of being the one to go first.
I've kept my promise but it kills me.
There isn't a day that goes by where I don't think of you.
I love you. I always have and I can't think of a day where I will stop.
