Truth behind it

I miss you

Every person in the world is different and love is not just about loving someone that is the same but it's also about loving a different person.

I have tried to love someone else but I couldn't. Every time I tried to, it just wouldn't last long. It will still end. It's hard to find someone better to replace you but it seems like there's no one better than you.

It's been a year since I broke up with you and things change. Not to the positive side. I mean it's not like it's been negative all the time but it just wouldn't seem right.

I had trouble forgetting you. Tried so hard but it just doesn't seem to work. Every little thing I do, it all just reminded me of you. Hugging my pillow every night reminded me of the time I hugged you. Seeing couples holding hands, just made me remembered how happy I was when I was holding your hand. It was happy to remember the past, the happy moments but it hurts

I tried and tried so many times to forget you and nothing in my life could stop me from remembering you. I did forget about you once. Once, that particular day. Things started to get worst.

Once I woke up the other day, the first question that my mom asked me was that if I was still with my old lovely friend. My answer was no. It hurts. I was out with my friends and they all asked me the same questions.

" Do you miss her?"

" What if one day she broke up with her bf? Will you still want her?"

All my answers were 'No' but in my heart, it's the opposite way. My friend knows that my answers to them were just a lie and they knew that I miss her a lot. Way much more. A year without her is just....bad. To be honest, it's really bad but yeah, I can't be a foolish guy and ruin people happiness.

Am I right?

Life wouldn't be the same without you but I gotta move on. I got to find someone new. Even if it reminded me of you, I will still do. Because life is short and I want to make the best memories.