I am debating the shit too fucking much. Should I write this? Shouldn't I? I'm not quite sure. The decent thing to do would be to close my laptop to hide this horrible fucking fanfiction. But that's the problem with me. Half the time I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. Thoughts like these runs through my head 24/7. So many people tell me what a good writer I am and how I'm hot as hell (well, they call me beautiful). Don't get me wrong, I love myself. Because I'm fucking awesome.
I was talking to my friend today and described myself as her "super cool weird, slightly dorky friend." Because let's face it, haven't we all acted a little dorky in our lives? A little weird? So, if you are reading this, I want to comment on what is the weirdest thing about you.
An example for me is that I am obsessed with mugs. Like, straight up hot tea mugs. I have so many they don't even fit in the cabinet anymore. But that's just one example. The best part about it is? I don't give two shits about what people think about me.
"Haters gonna hate, haters gonna get slapped" Is what I like to say.
There is a fine difference between arrogance and confidence, though sometimes it can be hard to tell. I am not an arrogant person. Not at all. The dictionary defines arrogance as "having or revealing an exaggerated sense of one's own importance or abilities."
Confidence is when you like yourself and everything about yourself. I am a confident person. I make jokes about my beauty on a regular basis, though I am not being a dick about it.
The problem with this? Some people get confused by those two words and think I am not making jokes but being serious. It can be extremely irritating.
One of my biggest problems with the world is all the hate and judgmental views towards anyone with any "major" flaw. Especially girls.
That's why people have eating disorders, get depressed, kill themselves, and all this other shit that is making people dislike themselves.
It's complete and utter bullshit.
Back earlier in the times, before texting and social media were a thing, there was only face-to-face bullying.
But now we have social media.
And now we can never. Be. Alone.
Just think about that. A life where you are being hated on, then come home to see all those shitheads commenting on your Instagram or Twitter feed calling you horrible names, telling you to kill yourself. How would you feel?
To any jackasses reading this, I want you to put yourself in the other person's shoes? How would you feel if you were the one being hated on? Then looking at your phone later and seeing some jackass cyber bully hating on you? Yeah, think about that.
That's the problem with technology.
Ever since it was invented, nobody is ever alone.
And it sucks.
So that's why I'm here, I guess. Because I wanted to tell the world that what you do has consequences. That you, whether you are noticing this or not, you are slowly destroying the person.
You are destroying their love for themselves.
And everybody needs to like themselves for the way they are and be comfortable in their own skin.
I used to be nervous & insecure about myself in Primary school up to 4th Grade. I was bullied by a few people and had no friends whatsoever.
But we didn't have social media yet.
So, I guess it could've been worse. I switched schools halfway into 4th grade and was super lucky to find a group of girls who I have known for ten years now. They are, and will forever be, my best friends.
Confidence.
I wish more people had it.
So, that's why I like to compliment people whenever I see them. They need to know that they matter, that they are enough. They don't need to prove anything to anyone in the world.
You. Are. Beautiful.
And I know beautiful, I promise.
Let me get a message to all my dudes out there- beauty is not just skin deep. They could have an amazing personality, a hilarious sense of humor, etc. So, if looks are all you see then you should just turn around and walk away.
None of us girls need fuckers like you anyway.
A/N: If you are feeling down about yourself, here are a few songs that'll make you feel better:
· "Who Says" by Selena Gomez
· "Confident" by Demi Lovato
· "Just the Way You Are" by Bruno Mars
· "Nobody's Perfect" by Hannah Montana
· "Sit Still, Look Pretty" by Daya
· "All About that Bass" by Meghan Trainor
· "Me Too" by Meghan Trainor
· "This is Me" by Demi Lovato
· "Roar" by Katy Perry
· "This is Me" from The Greatest Showman
