Do you even know
how much you hurt me
I may as well
be writhing in pain on the floor.
You stole my heart
with a smile
then gave it away
like it was nothing
I need that heart back, you know
because I don't like just dealing with this
blank, dark,
empty hole in my chest.
It's hard to love like this
with no heart to beat
no blood to bleed
through these cuts on my wrist.
Was it too much to handle?
Did he really need to know?
But the worst part is
you put the blame on me.
This fight is stupid
I'll admit it.
But you're making it more serious
and it's scaring me.
I'll miss you
if you leave
yet I hate you
while you're here.
go away
come back
stay away!
Never leave...
I wish it wasn't so confusing
having to fight for a secret
to stay a secret
when I thought I could trust you.
Is it as petty as you make it out to be?
Or are you just that shallow?
Stop hiding behind this mask
we all know who you really are...
***
I know this one might be a little confusing so let me clarify...
This poem is about one of my friends (we'll leave her name out) who I told that I was bi. Then she was on my profile and her boyfriend (who hates my guts and would do anything to ruin me... and makes this publicly known) is looking over her shoulder. He asks her who's profile it is, she tells him it's mine. And behold! Now he fucking knows I'm bisexual.
I wasn't gonna play the blame game, I wasn't getting angry. She snapps because she thought I was angry and tells me it's MY fault! That I brought this all on myself!
Just... to clarify what the poem is about...
Goodbye then...
