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**In everything we do we just have to remember we don't own ourselves, Allah comes first because without his Guide we are like the living dead**

This life is just what it is, I don't know how i feel or what to do, i feel alone i feel horrible probably i am the worst person on earth right now, why? Why?? Why is this happening to me? How will i deal with myself and all this pain am going through? l never did anything to deserve this or maybe i did but i don't actually remember, I never planned any of this to happen.It just happened and i couldn't control it.Hot tears ran through my cheeks as all the painful memories came running through my mind. I kept thinking how my life turned out to be, how lively i  was, how nothing seem to stop me from enjoying what life has to offer. I was just a twelve year old girl then,what did i  know,yet i was expose to this side of life....I can hardly accept the fact that i can't walk normal like before and using crutches as my support,I thank Allah am alive, they say every living being have a purpose in life but i wish i know the purpose of my life, i wish i know the reason why my creator change my life for good, this is a life journey i don't know where it's going to end. I kept wishing it was just a dream, a nightmare which will soon end but i was wrong, this is reality "My reality" and My destiny,That was how i ended my day.

I woke up the next morning ,it was 6:30 am and my lecture is by 8:00 am i took my bath and was getting dressed.Samira came in holding a cup of coffee handing it over to me,I smiled and said "thank u" Samira is my aunt but more like a sister and a friend, For me my Family are my friends,My elder sister Nabila which is the first born of the family and aunt Samira are my close friends,i  treated her bad from the start but now she is someone i have close to my heart, she is patient, considerable, and understand me well enough to write a book about me, she was always there for me and i know i can never repay her for what she is doing to me." I have morning lecture today and my lecture end till evening, I can't imagine the stress today.Samira you know I really underestimated this University I never knew there is much stress and i kept saying it is just like our former school, Ibrahim Badamasi Babangida part-time diploma."

"What were you thinking this is university not diploma and even if it is the same Ibbu this is not diploma much less part-time so u can't expect everything to be the same."

"Alright, it is almost time,let me get going . See you later." And i left. I stood by the road side waiting for a bike that will get me to classes area but I can't see any coming forth....I just can't believe i Farisha bin Abduljalil is a 200level biological science student of Ibrahim Badamasi Babangida University,Lapai even with my condition i still find education very interesting.

Finally saw a bike approaching, i stopped it and climbed on, getting to my destination which is the classes area i stopped the bike man and settled him.I headed to my department and entered where the lecture will hold,i saw an empty seat and made myself comfortable.

"Hello" I heard and turned around to see who it was.
"Hi, Good morning Sahab".... " Morning, how was your night? Hope you are doing good today " ..."yes , I am fine". Sahab is my course mate,we share a lot of ideas when it comes to studying, he is my reading partner and someone i can call a friend,he also got my back but most  people misunderstood our friendship and believe we are dating,We can't stop people from judging, if i ever had problem with any course he is the first person I run too. The lecturer came in and we ended our talk,he got back to his seat and the lecturer started lecturing.

Today was hectic,,,I came back to the hostel feeling all stressed out,I did not meet Samira so i assumed she went to class,,She cooked before she left, I am glad she did i mean she always does and always taking care of me like it was her duty. I freshened up and prayed my sallawat then i headed straight to my bed,I can't go to class today,I feel so tired.As I laid down to sleep i couldn't stop myself from thinking about my past.