Things I Didn't Say ☾l.t au

Prologue

Gosh Lou, it's been 100 days since we first laid on eyes on each other. From the start you knew I was depressed and I warned you not to get to close but my warning fell on deaf ears. I love you lou I love you so much. We both knew from the start this was going to happen and I'm sorry you couldn't save me. If it's worth anything I couldn't save myself either. You're with Eleanor and you're happy so it'll be a lot easier with me gone. Please stay that way. Happy for me okay? I know she always questioned how close we were so it'll be easier now. I'm so sorry Lou because I know you'll be the first to find my body I'm so fucking sorry. The letters they're yours. There's 100 for each day I was with you. They're all the things I wanted to say to you but I didn't because I knew you were with Eleanor and you loved her. Even knowing this I still fell for you and god Lou I fell hard. It's 5:30 and I know you'll be here at 8 to take me for coffee and breakfast and I have to be gone by then. By the time you find my letters I'll be gone. I don't want a big funeral lou I'll be fine without one at all. I'm sorry Lou don't ever blame yourself. I love you so so much. Don't ever forget that, okay? Goodbye Lou.

Forever and Always,

Yours Truly Teagan xx