Toy | bts x reader

20

~ Next Day ~

Your POV

Singing birds awaken me from my sweet slumber. I rub my sleepy eyes and look at the time. "5:43am." Still quite early, I thought. Might as well get ready anyway.

I hopped out of bed and gazed at my reflection apathetically. Memories from last night flooded back to me, drowning me in a whirlpool of emotion: apprehension, agitation and discomfort. Was that real? Why do I get attached so easily?? And why is he even doing this to me?

Filled with anguish and confusion, I take a refreshing shower to waken me up and, hopefully, forget about last night.

I turn the shower on, feeling the instant patters of the water on my back: as if my soul was being cleansed. Another day seeing Jimin and Yoongi. Why does this have to happen to me? I think to myself.

I gently wash myself with soap, contemplating if I should have done the deal with Yoongi or not. What's done is done though, now there's no turning back.

As I turn off the shower, I begin to dry myself with a towel and then brush my teeth. I look at myself in the mirror once again. Why is my life so complicated? I've finally had the chance to live a normal life as a normal teenager yet it feels like fate is pulling me back towards a life I want to forget.

I go back to my room and choose an outfit to wear: a yellow sweater with blue jeans and white sneakers. I don't usually go for this kind of approach but perhaps it's time to do something different.

"Breakfast is ready!!" Jungkook calls out to everyone in the house. A smile grows on my face. I'm so glad Kookie is back, I feel somewhat bad because he left the uni in America just to come to me; however, part of me feels that I should feel happier because my best friend is back. Yet there's another part of me that wonders about the secrets he's been hiding from me. I don't want to pry so I'll just hope he tells me eventually.

~At The Uni~

Tae, Myeong, Kookie and I go our separate ways to our classes. I saunter down the corridors forgetting about going to my first class and I catch a glimpse of Jimin walking past me. Then the motion of memories started again. Rushing back to me.

I shake my head as an attempt to brush away the thoughts of him and my missing childhood as I try to stay on track. Right Y/N, I think to myself. This is the real world. Normal life. There's no time to be dilly dallying. Go to your first class.

Desperately trying to gather up the motivation to forget and focus on studying, I take out my timetable and find that my first class is math. "Gheez," I said before scurrying off to class.

I enter the classroom without humiliating myself, thankfully, and I heedfully sit down in an upper middle row. There are only about 30 of us in this vast class and unsurprisingly, we all sit far away from eachother. Though this uni is old, it still gives off that new, fresh and crisp atmosphere.

Closing my eyes, I inhale the air; filling my lungs with oxygen. After reaching tranquility, I gently open my eyes.

But there he is. Walking. Closer and closer. I can't help but stare at him and his perplexing aura.

I realise I can't forget about this man so quickly. But.. I want to. But.. I also don't want to. I want to know more about my past and this man may be the key to discovering those lost memories.

I avert my eyes away from him. I swallow hard but there's a lump in my throat.

Maybe putting of some of my lip balm will calm me down, I think to myself. Why am I so indecisive??

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Author's note

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