Habrina One Shots

Pretending

Summary: Sabrina acting like she's okay w/ Harvey and Roz being together

Sabrina's POV:

It's a new year, new adventures, new things, new experiences. Sabrina is going in to the new year trying to be a better person and witch. Sabrina has a new wardrobe. Trying to be an edgy witch. Going to school with a new attitude. A lot more pain, a lot more hurt, a lot less lying, that is for certain. Walking into school should be a challenge. Seeing Harvey is like a bullet to my heart. A hammer to my ribs. A knife to my heart.

I screwed up what I had with Harvey...badly.

I lied to Harvey about who I really am, his brother died then I resurrected him, he came back in the wrong way and Harvey had to kill his own brother. So now, he hates that I am a witch...and me. Even though he said he never can, I can tell he hates me. The way he looked at me when I told him the truth about everything. The way he looked at me when he told me every time he looks at me it reminds him of his brother. The look where nothing I can do can make it right. It's like a look of disgust on his face every time he looks at me.

The sad part about it is...i deserve it

I thought the way things are with Harvey and I couldn't get any worse until it did.

I walked down the hallway to see Harvey and Roz kissing.

In that moment, i broke inside, i was dead, still, frozen, like everybody in the hallway stop moving. I couldn't see nothing but them two. I felt a burning sensation all over my body. A feeling like somebody took my heart and ripped it apart with their bare hands. It was devastating, heartbreaking, the pain will never stop.

I look at them heart broken. Then I thought, I deserve this. I caused him pain, I caused him an unthinkable pain to where he had to take his own brother's life. I don't want them to know that when I see them I literally want to die inside. So the only way to make them not know, is to be okay with it.

I felt someone walk up behind me but I already knew who it was. It was Susie. When she looked in the direction I was looking at, she just knew how I felt. " You okay ?" she asks. I looked at her with a look of sadness. "No..." I looked away from her and back to Harvey and Roz. " No i'm not okay" I said. "

At this point I'm on the verge of crying. I could feel it in my stomach coming up my throat. I keep looking at them, and I feel myself getting dizzy. When I start to realize I can barely stand, I start hyperventilating. I realize now I can't breathe. I start breathing in and out and its not working. Susie notices what's happening to me and came straight to my aid. " Hey, hey, hey, Brina, calm down." I look at her and start crying. " What is happening to me?" I ask. " You are having a panic attack, Brina. You need to calm down, listen to the sound of my voice." I focus on the sound of my voice, I realize what I hear, it's my friend. I start to calm down, i'm breathing correctly. That happened so fast nobody noticed what was happening to me. I turn around to notice that Harvey and Roz is still caught up in they're own little world. I sigh of relief, i'm thinking thank god.

" What are you gonna do?" Susie asks. Susie knows me to well. I look up at her wiping my tears. " Well, i'm not going to tell them how I actually feel. So Susie, you don't say a word about what just happened." Susie looked at me with confusion. "Brina-" I interrupted her "Look, they can't know that I literally cannot even be around them without feeling like my heart is being ripped to shreds. I have done enough damage to you all already, especially Harvey." Susie sighs and nods in agreement. I nod at her and I turn around to face them. I look at them giving little pecks to each other. I breathe in and breathe out, and started walking up to them with Susie behind me.

I walk up to them to the point they notice that I am actually there. They look at me with wide eyes. Its almost like they saw a ghost when they saw me. I was about to say hi until Roz started to ramble.

"Sabrina, I am sorry. I wanted to tell you but how could I. I'm sorry, I just couldn't tell you but I was afraid you were going to be mad and I didn't want to start confrontation. Harvey and I didn't want to keep this from you and I certainly didn't plan to like Harvey cause I always saw him as my best friend. I can't imagine how angry and pissed you must be but Harvey and I never wanted to hurt your feelings." Roz stopped then Harvey started.

" I swear I never wanted you to find out this way. It all happened really fast. I wasn't trying to lie to you we just thought you would be pissed at us because of the whole thing with you and I and her being your best friend. We didn't want the fact that we liked each other to mess up the friend group." Harvey then stopped.

In that moment of silence, a lot of questions ran through my head.

Why are you with him ?

Why can't that be me ?

Why didn't I trust Harvey ?

Why did I screw things up ?

I wanted to take off without saying anything. I wasn't upset at all, I just didn't want to deal with this right now.

Instead of me doing what I wanted to do, I asked them

"Are you done yet ?"

They look at me with confusion. I then go on to say

" I'm not mad" They look at me with even more confusion. Harvey asks me "you're not ?" I look at him and shake my head no. Harvey then goes on "Okay am I missing something ?, you're not mad at us ?" I then look at them in confusion "Should I be ?" Harvey was about to start rambling again until I interrupted " Don't even continue, i'm okay with it, you guys are fine" Roz looks at me "We are?'' I look at them and chuckled " Yes, look" I thought of what to say I look over at Harvey and just blurted it out.

" I treated you terrible. I wasn't a good girlfriend to you and that isn't fair to you, at all. I lied our entire relationship when you never gave me a reason to not trust you. I don't deserve you and you deserve better. Roz can be that girlfriend I never was to you. So no, I'm not mad that you guys are together. I am happy for you both, truly and honestly you guys are fine, i promise." They both look at me and sighed of relief. They both had smiles on their faces. "Thanks Sabrina" comes from them both. A hug from Roz, and a smile from Harvey.

I then hear the sound of the bell to tell us to go to class. I wave Roz and Harvey goodbye. When I no longer see them in sight, my smiled dropped.

"You said you will never lie to us again Sabrina" Susie said.

I turn around to her with a look of sadness. " I know but, sometimes its necessary. Besides, it wasn't all a lie." I then felt tears down my face. Susie hugged me immediately. At this point nobody was in sight. So I just cried, and sobbed in the hallway of school.

So much for starting the new year off right.

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