Love That Never Saved Me

Anxiety At Its Finest

        "It's not official though." Kouyou stated.

        "Is it only official if we fucked?" Yuu asked. Kouyou threw a pillow at him. Yuu laughed as he caught it and threw it back, missing Kouyou. "I'm being serious, do you want to have sex or no?"

        "What kind of question is that, Yuu? You don't ask someone to have sex with you, you just do it." Kouyou replied trying to making the bed. He grabbed the pillow that was thrown next to him and set it up against the headboard. He sighed deeply sitting on his half-made bed. He still needed to put the rest of the pillows on there but his mood suddenly dimished and Yuu could see it. "I'm...I'm just not ready for a serious serious relationship, y'know?" Yuu got up from his spot on the couch and walked into the bedroom. 

        "Kouyou, I know that but-."

        "It's just that after my first relationship... I don't want to go back to that, I mean it took enough courage to even go out with you. I don't want you to turn into some kind of monster." 

        "Look, I'm not like that other guy okay? I would never hurt you." He said, turning Kouyou's face towards him. He could see his eyes shine with stagnant tears. Yuu traced Kouyou beautiful lips with his thumb and leaned in to kiss them. Kouyou closed his eyes and his tears fell but Yuu hand was there to wipe them away as he cupped his face to bring the kiss in deeper. Their moment was soon interrupted by the sound of Kouyou's phone going off. They both sighed annoyingly as Kouyou apologized getting up to get his phone from his dresser that was across from them. It was Akira.

        "Baka, you call me such a time? What do you want?" Kouyou answered trying to not to sound too annoyed but it was hard. Yuu knew it was Akira from the use of baka and he decided to leave the room. Kouyou gently nodded a 'thank you' to Yuu as he closed the door behind him.

        "Have you seen Yutaka?" Akira asked, sounding tired but worried. Kouyou looked at the time on his clock and rolled his eyes.

        "It's 9:00am, I haven't even eaten breakfast yet and you expect me to know where he is? I assume he's at home but why didn't you call him yourself? He always answers especially when it's you."

        "I did call him. It's the first thing I did but he didn't answer I thought you might know."

        "Well, he did join Takanori, Yuu, and I last night for dinner. Oh! He took Takanori home because he got drunk." Kouyou laughed remembering last night. "He was a cute drunk but Takanori would know if he remembers. Call him."

        "Okay thanks." He hung up. 

        "Uh... bye to you too." Kouyou ended the call on his line. "Yuu it's fine." Kouyou came out of his room to find Yuu invading his refridgerator. "Baka." Kouyou said watching him from the door. 

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        Akira decided to call Takanori, hoping he'd know here Yutaka was. But Kouyou said he was drunk last night. He's probably not even awake, the little lightweight. He dialed Takanori's number but it went straight to voicemail.

        "Damn it." He said calmly but anger began to rise as he tried again and got only voicemail. "Hey, Takanori call me when you wake. Okay, bye." He left a voice mail on Takanori's phone and hoped that he'd get a call soon. He put his phone and went into the kitchen to get something to drink. The more he thought abotu Yutaka not being here the more it scared and infuriated him. What if he left him? He couldn't of meant what he said because he loved Akria, right? Akira loved Yutaka. Except for his flaws. Those constant flaws that Yutaka seemed to show just to anger him. Sure he'd forgive him from time to time but he always needed to punish him to make sure he would stop showing those flaws. His forgetfulness. He hated that the most because he was sure that Yutaka would forget that Akira did the things he did out of love. It would make Akira angier. And he would mark his anger on Yutaka all the time.