Breaking Point

Chapter 11

The next morning I woke up to something smelling good. I walked downstairs following that good smell. It was Chris making a huge breakfast.

Well good morning good looking he said with excitement.

Good morning I said.  Watcha' making ? I asked.

I am making you  some steak, grits, and buttery toast, and top it off with a glass of fresh squeezed oranges. Don't forget to take your vitals every day. He said. I picked some of the oranges off the tree in your front yard. I hope you don't mind and the vegetables from the garden. I must stay you have the green thumb don't you.

I chuckled because there is no way I'm taking my time to garden anything. Those are my mothers, she's going to kill you if she finds out that you've been in there. He sat there next me at the breakfast bar and said she'll be alright. We sat talked and ate our breakfast.

Back at Dawson's house....

Nobody knows where she is ? There still isn't no trace of her whereabouts ? How hard is it to find a girl that looks like this ? He said in frustration while holding a picture of me. She should be at least in between 5-8 months pregnant. Someone please find my girl. Tell her I'm sorry & I'll do everything right this time.

There was a knock at the door. Jeeves the butler opened it. It was Tiffanie.

She came inside the house with a stomach as big as mine. Dawson dropped his mouth to the floor.

No wonder we haven't seen you. You ran off & got pregnant ! Dawson said.

It's your Dawson. I found out about 6 months ago after had sex on her couch that night you & Ty got into it. I'm keeping the baby whether you are apart of it or not. I also have other terrible news. Tiffanie had began to cry. Ty' Anna... Ty'Anna is dead !!! She fell to the ground in tears. They found her body in the woods. Not too far from where her car was found. She's dead Dawson. She's dead !!!

Dawson has fell to his knees. He sobbed so loudly. What have I done ?!?! What have I done ?!?!?

Later on that day I contemplated about going to Dawson's house.  I thought about telling him where I was, instead I remember how bad he treated me. How he beat my ass countless times, made threats about killing me, putting guns to my head. I couldn't go back to that, But I craved his touch, his smell, his laugh, just everything about him. I really want to see him. I got in the car & drove. Drove until I couldn't drive no more. I stopped at a lake that me & Dawson used to go to clear our heads. I sat here & I just stared at the sky. I've thought about what could of been. If I was still there. If we was still going to be good friends, if any of this was going to work out. I began crying because I didn't ask for this life. I always thought we would be a happy family. Not a broken home. The more I thought of things went. The sadder I got. I began to cry with my head in my hands. My baby was moving a lot. I had so much on my mind that I felt as though I could not breathe. I started breathing heavily gasping for air. I felt like i couldn't take life anymore. I got up and stepped closer to the water, I dipped my toe inside, the water was so cold. I walked slowly into the lake with tears running down my face. This is it I am going to end here. What is life at this moment, I can't raise this baby on my own, My mom doesn't love me, the only man I have ever been with has used me, abused me, left me here to think I am not worthy of anything. I might as well end it all here. I walked more into the water waist deep. I looked into the sky and thought this is it. I slowly lowered down in the water. It rose to my chest, than my neck, and now I am all the way in the water, sinking down. My life is flashing before my eyes, but I am sinking, sinking to the bottom. I hit the bottom of the lake. I open my eyes to the fishes and other creatures swimming around, I look up at the sky once again. I see the sun and it looks so beautiful from the water, I can barely see but it seems as though someone is coming towards me. I see a hand reaching out. I don't grab it. I started to lose my breath. I can no longer breathe. I'm slowly drifting.  Everything turns black. I am dead, I  am no longer alive. Here I am at the bottom of the lake. DEAD! Than there was hand that reached out and grabbed out the water. I was unconcious, I carried out by a strange man I did not know. He carried me the hospital.