Janes pov
Why me of all people? It had to happen to me? To my family. To the one person I’ve loved all my life since I saw him. My thoughts kept taunting me making me more insane than I already was. He’s dead because of me. I didn’t get to him in time and Hoyt was already gone. I sat on my bathroom floor crying with my phone ringing in the background infact my mobile and house phone even my work mobile rang but I ignored them. Minutes, hours even days past and I still cried all alone in my apartment. Maura, Ma, Frost and Korsak all tired to visit but I didn’t let them in instead I shooed them away and cried harder. It’s been over a week since Casey died and his funeral is tomorrow which is the day we were going to get married. I cried harder into my pillow not wanting to get up and hoping to drown out the pain but that never worked.
Around 2pm there was a knock at the door. I got up and looked through the peep hole. I was shocked but opened the door anyway. “Janie, it’s great to see you. How are you?” Frank (my pop) asked.
“Pop what are you doing here?” I asked ignoring his question and going straight for the kill. “I came to see how you were I heard about the wedding from Tommy and thought I would pay you and Casey a visit before the big day.” He replied and that set me off again crying uncontrollably into my hands and sliding down my door. “Janie what’s wrong?” He asked in a hushed tone. I cried harder thinking about him dead.
“H-H-HE-HE’S-HE’S-HE’S dead.” I whispered the last part and carried on crying into my hands as Frank got up and called someone. I couldn’t keep myself together even though I hadn’t seen my pop in a year and I was always strong around him. I cracked breaking my streak. I didn’t know how long I was on the floor for but soon Frank was carrying me onto the couch and pulling me close as I cried into his chest.
Time flew by and then I heard a knock. Frank got up and answered it. Maura, Ma and Tommy came into my apartment and I lost it as Maura pulled me into her chest. I was now crying harder than before not only because I lost Casey but also because I pushed my best friend away when I needed her most. She’s the one person I loved more than Casey and if anything happened to her I think I would be worse than this. She held me close and tight as Ma, Frank and Tommy argued over things mostly to do with Frank making me cry. I slowly stopped crying and fell asleep in Maura’s arm’s as she stroked my back soothing me.
Maura’s pov
Jane began to slowly stop crying and fell asleep. I can’t believe the woman I love’s fiancée was killed by Hoyt. I was so mad when he did, Casey was a great friend even though he was going to marry the one person I love he was a great friend and he kept her happy. I asked Tommy to take her to her bed and he did. Frank and Angela still argued about what happened and why he was here. A few hours later they had stopped arguing and left with Tommy. I said I would stay behind and look after Jane and asked Angela to get me some clothes for the next few days which she kindly did. Hours had passed and I heard quiet sobs coming from Jane’s room so I got up and checked on her.
When I got to her door I saw her curled up on her bed hugging a pillow and crying into it. I walked over and sat on the side of her bed and began to rub her back. She turned to look at me tears still pouring down her face. She looks so vulnerable right now I hate seeing her like this with no one to tell her she’s alright and she’ll get through this. “Jane, Come here,” I say soothingly and stretch out my arms to her. She sits up and hugs me. I whisper reassuring words to her as I stroke her back and hair in my embrace. Hours pass by and she finally calms down. “Do you want something to eat?” I ask since I don’t know when the last time she ate was. She nods and I slowly stand up brining Jane with me. We walk into the living room and I sit her on the couch and walk the short distance to her kitchen. I look in her fridge and see only beer and empty shelves. I walk to her p[hone and order take away and grab two beers for us, then walk back to Jane and find her staring at her engagement ring with tears slowly trickling down her face. I sit down and hand her a beer. She gratefully takes it and drinks it. By the look on her face she needs something stronger but that’s all she has so it’ll have to do. The silence spreads across us and I decide to break the silence. “Jane, it wasn’t your fault it’s Hoyt’s. Ok not yours.” She looks at me like I’ve said a horrible word. “How isn’t it my fault? Hoyt wants me and he’s going to kill everyone I love so I can’t handle it any more and it tears me up then he’ll swoop in and take me out of my misery!” She begins to yell at me. What am I suppose to say to that? “I don’t know how I’m going to get over the fact he killed Casey to get to me and I was too late for him. I couldn’t save him and it tears me up. I can’t sleep at night because when I do I see Casey’s dying face and Hoyt standing over him laughing. He haunts me and I don’t think I could live if he kills any of you especially you.” Especially me what does that mean. She looks down then back at me. I can see the longing and lost in her eyes as she stares at me. “Jane we’ll get through this. Everyone has your back they’re all looking for Hoyt right now and when they do they will tell you.” I say in a soothing voice. She stares into my eyes looking for something but I’m not quite sure what. “Thank you Maura for being here and just being you.” As she says it there’s a knock at the door so I answer. It’s the pizza guy. After paying for the pizza I sit back down with Jane and we share. We make small talk but I can tell something’s bothering her. “Jane, what’s wrong I know this is a hard time for you but there seems to be something else nagging at you. What’s wrong Jane?” I ask her. She looks like she’s thinking of how to say it or what to say, I’m not quite sure. She looks down at her hands and then at me then her hands again so I sit up and place my hands over her’s. “Jane what’s wrong?” I ask again trying to find out what’s eating away at her. She looks at me and say’s, “Maura i-i-I think I’m in l-l-l-love with you” She whispers the end and starts to cry again. So I try to comfort her. I’m shocked the woman I love just told me she thinks she’s in love with me. She must be emotionally unstable and her mind is going crazy on her because of Casey dying. “Jane i-i-I don’t know what to say are you sure you’re in love with me?” She nods. “Okay. Can I just ask how long have you felt this way about me?” She stops crying and looks up at me.
“Ever since I saw you. Even though I was dressed as a prostitute undercover you still offered to pay for my drink” She said making me tear up. I sat there contemplating what to do. I sat up and pulled her face into my hands and kissed her. At first she was shocked then kissed me back and relaxed into the kiss. We both pulled back when we needed air and she said, “So you feel the same way?” I nodded. She smiled and kissed me again. The kiss began to get very heated and soon she was on top of me on the couch kissing me down my neck. I moaned as she found my pulse point and began to suck. The next thing I knew we were in her bedroom naked. We did the best unspeakable things to each other.
Janes pov
The next day I woke up wrapped around a naked Maura. I smiled at her and stroked a piece of hair out of her face. She stirred a little but didn’t wake up. I leant down and quickly kissed her lips. She opened her eyes and pulled me down and kissed me passionately. A soft moan escaped my lips and we pulled away. “Morning,” I said smiling down at her. “Good Morning,” She replied with a huge smile forming on her face. I kissed her again but got carried away and repeated last nights events.
