I WAS NEVER THERE

Her world

"Are you sure you're gonna do this? I mean, you can still come with us if you want to, anak." Napatingin ako sa tao sa aking likuran. Amoy niya palang nakakasuka na. How did nanay stand this guy? I sighed. It annoys the hell out of me when he calls me anak — Sobrang hipokrito. 

Kasalukuyan kong inaayos ang sasakyan ko. Nabangga ko kasi 'to sa isang kahoy malapit sa subdivision namin. I was drunk alright, and there's this guy; he offered to take me home but I declined. And guess what? sinundan niya pa din ako papunta sa bahay. I was mad, dinalian ko ang pagmamaneho sa kotse knowing na nasa likod ko lang ang sasakyan niya and look what happened. Seriously? Ni hindi niya nga kilala sino talaga ako tapos iuuwi niya pako sa bahay? seryoso siya? Ang sabihin niya, gusto niya lang makaisa. Ano ako? tanga?

Umupo ako sa harapan ng kotse ko at tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. 

"C'mon. We've been dealing this shit since forever. And besides, I'm 21 years old for Satan's sake!" I hissed.

"Hey, watch your language young woman. Gusto mo bang bawiin ko na naman 'yang credit card mo? And what are you even wearing? May suot ka pa ba?" Napatawa ako. So concern na siya ngayon?

I looked at myself. I'm wearing super tight black jeans and a pink tube with a denim jacket. What? It's my usual get-up. I roll my eyes. Tinignan ko siya mula ulo hanggang paa. 

He's handsome and very formal. He's 42 yet he's still charming, I can't deny that. Kaya pala ang daming napingwit. He's wearing his old and boring office attire. Literally, he wears it every fucking day. Nagpapalit pa ba to? Never ko nga to nakitang naka tshirt eh. I roll my eyes. He's wearing decent clothes yet his manners and respect for everyone below him are nowhere to be found. 

"shut up dad; I'm not a kid anymore." I turned on the engine and locked the door of my Bugatti Veyron. This is his favorite, but it's mine now. (AND HE CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT)

"don't act like a good fucking father because you never were and you never will, asshole." Pinakitaan ko siya ng Fuck you sign at pinasibat ko na agad ang kotse ko. Serves him right.

Ngayon pa talaga siya magpapaka-tatay? Hindi ko talaga magets bakit may lakas pa siya ng loob na tawagin akong anak. Sinasabi ko talaga wag nya akong matakot takot sa credit card na'to, sapakin ko pa siya nito eh. Pagkatapos ng lahat ng ginawa niya sakin at kay nanay? At niyaya niya pa talaga akong sumama sa kanya at sa kabit niyang mag bakasyon? In the name of jesus christ, HIS NEW MISTRESS IS YOUNGER THAN ME. fuck. I'd rather burn in hell than be with them. Oh god i swear i loathe him to death!

I sighed. If only nanay were here, edi sana masaya at hindi miserable ang buhay ko. Well, I am happy. I can get what I want; I can have what I wish to sa lahat ng bagay— Pero mas masaya pa din pag nandito si nanay. 

I parked my car ng makarating ako sa destinasyon ko. I checked myself in the mirror for a while. I put on my red lip stick, the only thing men wants me to wear. I smiled. I know my dad is an asshole but thanks to him and nanay's features; I was born glorious and divine. 

I can make any man beg and cry for my attention. But i won't give that to them, of course. They can bleed all they want. I won't care.

Huminga ako ng malalim. Pagkatapos ay lumabas na ako ng kotse. I can already hear the loudness of the music from the inside kahit na medyo malayo pa ako. Rinig na rinig ko mula rito ang hiyawan at tawanan ng mga tao. 

This is where I belong.

"Samira what took you so long? Gown ba yang suot mo't kailangang ilang oras mag bihis?" I roll my eyes. Hindi ko pa siya nakikita pero kilala ko na kung sino ang nag mamay-ari ng boses na iyon.