MY WET PILLOW
Hi I'm Anna Graham, October 21st is my birthday, Fourteen years old and I'm from Manila, Philippines.
I'm now living in my own dark world without any trace of a human being, Aside from me.
Alone in this hollow deep, waiting for someone to help me out in this dark.
Everyday my world's getting darker and lonelier.
I know someone wont come to my place just to communicate in someone like me,
A nerd and an ugly person like me.
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No one can afford a weirdo like me,
As day passes by, The word social is getting blurry.
The word "PAIN",
It's killing me softly.
I just want to fake smile or laugh because I know, I wont experience those things.
Everyday I laugh with tears in my eyes,
Tears of joy? Hell no! I'm laughing with tears, it's because I'm sorry for myself, why? It's because I'm so fake.
I'm so pitiful....
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The day of my birthday came
It's a shame that no one greeted me,
I couldn't put a blame
'cause I don't have a fame.
Every hour of this day, It feels like I'm no one;
Every minute , It feels like I'm not valuable;
Every second, It feels like I'm not living.
It's 10 in the evening and I'm still hoping that someone can greet me aside from my parents.
I just wasted the time of my birthday waiting, hoping and crying.
Staring at my phone with no notifications made me feel alone...
But then again I'm laying in my bed and waiting for a chat.
I know no one will , I'm already accepting the fact that no one's interested in my birthday or it's better to say no one knows it's my birthday...
It's now 11:59 in the evening, and I'm still waiting for an impossible thing to happen.
Beep*
Oh my Gosh!
That's the first word that came out of my mouth after that sound entered my ear.
I cheked my phone quickly and I'm shocked from what I've seen.
A message from a stranger;
"Hello? Why are you still awake?"
I don't know what to do or say, I can't compose my words because I'm so nervous right now, I don't know how or why is this happening!
Am I in a dream?
I asked myself.
I tap my cheeks , and it proves that it's real.!
This thing is real!
I replied and said,
"Hi, ahmmmm who are you? Well nevermind I'm glad you tried to communicate with me."
Without a second thought I also send my next reply without his/her next message..
"It's because,ahmmm today is my birthday and I'm waiting for someone, I don't know whom! Kind of weird right? But that's me so..."
the stranger replied in less than a minute and said,
"Well Happy Birthday and I'm fine with those things...I'm Dave Glor and we're in the same university and guess what I'm also a fine arts student but not in the same class as yours..."
"Ahmm?Dave right? Bakit mo ako chinachat ? May kailangan kaba?"
"Actually wala, I just saw one of your artwork at the exhibit last week and I'm so impressed and Inspired by your piece...
Kaya kita chinat it's because I want to know more about you and you know...hahahaha...."
"Deib?ah ganon ba. Thank you sa compliment pero sinasabi ko na ngayon palang don't talk to me kung ayaw mong pag tsismisan ka rin nila!"
"But,anong gagawin ko? Kaya nga kita chinat kasi gusto kitang makilala!"
"Sige ikaw bahala, Well deib,welcome to my world!"
I'm so happy 'cause for the first time someone greeted me except my family. For the first time someone appreciates my works and appreciates my effort!.
I wont forget this day!
1:34 na ng gabi at pinikit ko na ang aking mga mata at nagsimulang nagdasal, Nagpasalamat sa diyos dahil Sa unang pagkakataon natulog ako ng may ngiti sa aking bibig at hindi lungkot na may pag iyak sa aking mga mata.
Sa unang pagkakataon tuyo mula sa mga patak ng luha ang aking unan.
Ang mundo ko ngayon ay nasa katamtamang panahon walang ulan ngunit wala ring araw.
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Kinabukasan...
Kring********
Kring kring***
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Nagising nanaman ako mula sa madilim na pagkakatulog, bago ako tumayo ng higaan ay nag bukas muna ako ng facebook nakita kong may isang chat nanaman ang kachat ko kagabi, Dali dali ko 'tong binuksan at ako'y natuwa sa aking nabasa.
"Goodmorning Anna, Mag breakfast kana't 'wag ng magiiskip ng pagkain"
"Goodmorning din deib, Sige kain na ako."
Agad akong tumayo sa higaan at naghilamos, pagkatapos ay pumunta na ako sa kusina para magtimpla ng kape at mag palaman ng tinapay.
Picture sent;
"Oh ayan pruweba, Ikaw ba kumain kana?"
"' 'di pa nga eh, Nababaliw na ata ako?"
"Baliw? Bakit?"
"Simula kasi kahapon ang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko tapos lagi kang pumapasok sa isip ko?
Baliw na ba ako sa'yo?"
Nabigla ako sa sinabi niya't kinabahan pero aaminin ko kinikilig ako hahahaha!
"Baliw ka na nga talaga ahahahaha!,Totoo ba 'yan?"
"Oo anna? May nararamdaman ako kapag kachat ka."
"Creepy mo ah pero- ano 'yong nararamdaman mo?"
"Ahmm Can we meet each other? Do'n ko sasabihin yung nararamdaman ko!"
God? Is this real , Please wake me up if not.
Naguguluhan ako pero kinikilig, alam mo yo'ng first time ganon ahahah grabe ayaw tumigil ng puso ko.
"Sa'n tayo mag kikita?"
"Sa likod nalang ng school, after class"
"Ah sige sige"
Lumipas ang mga oras ng aking buong araw na ikaw lang ang laman ng isipan.
Naeexcite na ako para bukas !
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Kinabukasan...
Ang tagal naman ng lalaking yo'n sabi niya afterclass! Kinakabahan tuloy ako,Paano ba naman ang creepy dito parang abandoned na yung place.While waiting nag cellphone muna ako't umupo sa isang malaking sanga ng bumagsak na puno,makalipas ang ilang minutong pag iiscroll may naramdaman ako,
Someone is at my back. I can't help it so I looked back, No one , I saw noting, after that I turned my head back but this time I saw someone, He grabbed me by force and he eagerly tied me up, after that I screamed and Cried for a help but No one can hear me, He smirked and started to talk,
"Anna? Nice to meet you! "
"D-deib?"
"Opps that's not my real name, Tsk you're so easy! But you know what you're so pretty"
"A-anong akala ko ba kaibigan kita?"
"Don't worry anna mabilis lang 'to, Masasarapan kapa!"
He started doing his mission,
I can't do anything, I Can't talk, I can't scream
you know why, it's because, it's my fault...
He raped me but I can't talk about it with someone 'cause I have no one, I can't even with my parents.
Every Night, My pillowcase catches all my pain, Alll my hatred , All my tears I've been like this for how many years, I just want to end my life.
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{I hope that this story can give you a lesson an a knowledge
Social Media is FULL OF SUPPOSITIOUS PEOPLE, YOU SHOULD TRUST NO ONE.}
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