Dark Alice

Right now I'm Dark Alice
& I want to kill that fucking white rabbit.
See my mind escapes me sometimes
It's exactly like the movie
My mind runs after the white rabbit
and down, down the fucking hole it goes
To the contradictions, nonsense, & beautiful madness.
It's takes days for me to come back sometimes
I just wish I had control over my highs & lows
These pros & cons have me feeling a float

The white rabbit seems to always lurk
& seldom gives notice to when he is coming out to play
I would not mind it so
if it were In fact like the animation
But while falling down that deep hole
Every bad memory I own rapes me
It claws, rips, screams, hits, tortures
& demolishes whatever life I have in me
until only my body is standing
No heart, no soul, no mind
comes out of that passage
& As I walk broken towards whatever fate lies before me
The Dark seas around me rise & rise
Then swallow me completely
I don't bother fighting , it's to strong
I will lose the fight regardless
So I let the water take me in
Dance with me enchantress
Finally she lets me go
& whispers sweet nothings in my ear
The gates are dark
Yet full of life—there goes that fucking rabbit

"We meet again. The queen is waiting" he says
& smiles with to much pleasure

I smile back with devils help
"To my lady we shall go" I mummer

Threw many dark places
And mad houses we venture threw & threw
Rabbit has the tendency of even having whiskey too
Rabbit lives up to his name
In every lovely way
Straight down to the fucking
We do it in every way
Cat shows up and Mad Hatters never is to far behind
Around this point is when things always get way far out of line
We party hard & drink hard
Things go dark quickly
I never truly know when it collides
You know the feeling of having a good time
-yet also red flags flying?
Yep... EVERYTIME I'm with them
I FEEL LIKE IM TRIPPING
I feel I'm in DESPAIR
I may not know much
But I know this to be true
Say it's out loud Alice...
This can't be real;
right?

(Inhales deeply)

I wake up to roses
Roses everywhere
My baby is a rose
she even wears them in her hair
I love how it makes her complexion & eyes stand out like my own personal whore...
Love how she has them going down her back & so so much more

"You could be dead" she states

What else is new? I say

"Stop it" she yells

" Okay, You too-" I demanded

"I've missed you so much" she lies

"—RIGHTTT... me too" I comply

"You are never happy to see me" she whimpers

"Sorry this isn't a vacation, I'm forced here by my mind.
So, Please don't test my patience."
Broken record I sing every time 

I'll never deny her
she's to beautiful
this I will never down play.
If Harley Quinn and the Devil fucked
The queen of hearts is the out play.
Asleep she looks so innocent
Most evil does
How cliche
The way she holds me
those kisses
that eagerness
I'll admit,
Im almost convinced-
almost...
But reality always kicks in.

OFF WITH HER HEAD!
I've had enough,
The. BITCH. Dies. Today!
Have me no longer,
In wonderland
these demons will ALL stay.
So see every time I see that white rabbit...
I want to kill him with my bare hands
the truth is I have several times
my darling queen of hearts too
Even mad hatter pissed me off one night
I offed his ass too.
They all reappear like nothing
even sweeter than before
Temptation is a drug itself
they build my world on that to taunt me
I know this for bloody sure
& they got me, they got me good.
Evil always knows what cards to play.
So rabbit if your listening
I'm coming for you baby
If I were you
I'd keep lurking in those shadows
I'm so fucking over you

& if by chance you guys spot him
Help a girl out
send my rose a message
(Sliding finger to indicate cutting throat & mouths Off with her head!)
Right off!
I'm DONE being Dark Alice!