Seesaw (Yoongi FF)

Seesaw (warning has swearing)

                                                                                                      { Y/n POV }
        I was walking alone in the rain wondering were it went wrong. We were like two peas in a pod, and we loved each other more then anything. I guess fame separate people. I remember the time were he asked me out, and can I just say he was as shy as a ever. I also remember on September the 5th he asked me to be his friend then on January the 12th he asked me out. I was a bit shy and could not stop  blushing around him, and I was so happy. We dated for 3 years starting in grade 10. Those years could make you thing he would never change,but I was wrong. I was in love with him and I thought he still loved me but I was wrong. Once we graduated he started working for big hit and then debuted in a band called BTS in 2013. I was happy for him, but as he grew more famous he would forget me. He never showed love or even showed interest in me. I would tell him, but then he would apologize say he was tired, or someone time say I don't wanna hear it. I was hurt. No not because of his job, or the fact that he would come home late, that he cared more about his job then me. But because on his free time he rather hang with his friends, he wouldn't even sleep in the same room as me, that he moved out without telling me, left me for a month and came back just saying sorry, or that he would not show love like hugging me or kissing me. That shit hurts like hell! I did not ask for much since he is a hard worker. I would stay up all night asking myself if he ate, would he break up with me, was he over working ? I hate myself for loving myself those days. Tears would always be present then, but now I know I just wasted my love then. I know even if I could redo it I would have kept it the same. Why? Because I learned alone the way that love is harder then it looked, it will come and go like that, but pain last a long time. It's not easy to love and forget. I want to move on, and not hold on, but, It's so hard because everything reminds me of him. I knew he would break up with me , but it hurt to much to think about it. It took a while for him to come out because nobody wants to be the bad guy right? I was happy he was showing his true colour and stoped beating around the bush. I didn't want to make him feel guilty so I played alone as if I lost feeling for him too. But who is this wonderful person? He is no other then  MIN YOONGI, and you might of heard of him as suga. The love he gave was like riding a SEESAW, but even tho we had are ups, and downs I still will forever keep him in my heart! If I could see him again I would tell him . " Thank you for ridding this seesaw with me! "