~~~~~(Camillas Pov)~~~~~
Last night was the worst night of my life.When he told me what he did I couldn't breathe my throat closed up it felt like an allergic reaction,it was horrible.But the pain I felt in my throat was nothing compared to the pain I felt in my heart.My brain was on overdrive all I could think was what if I was nicer to him he wouldn't have done this.
It's all you fault
You should've known
Stop being so oblivious
If you would have let him mark you
He wouldn't have to find someone else
All of these thoughts were running my brain and I didn't know how to stop them.It felt like I could explode at any moment.
I was crying and crying nonstop I don't even think he cares he never tried to even apologize.He doesn't love me like he says he does.Cheating on someone is never okay,especially your mate who was specially picked for you.Its not right.
I know how he'd feel if I cheated,he would punish me and kill the other person.But what am I supposed to do?Just take it?
Just take it.
He's sorry.
He didn't mean it.
He loves us.
He wouldn't hurt us.
But he already has,so many times before.In the short span of time we've known each other he's caused me so much heart break.
I am completely and totally broken because of him.
But I can't help being completely and totally in love with him.Zander Scott does something to me that makes my heart race.The tears fell more and more nonstop.His scent lingered everywhere in my room.Was he here last night?Is that why I slept so good?I hope it wasn't.
I want to go home,but this is my home.No this is not my home,this is my personal hell.And there is no escaping.
Have you ever been so empty and confused that you want to sleep for thousands of years.Just so you don't have to face another day where no one else understand you or the pain you're going through.That no matter how much company you have around you,you still feel absolutely and utterly alone.
That was how I was feeling sitting at the table with the whole entire pack.Zander was on the right of me and Trent to my left with Sawyer across from me.
"Hey Camilla are you okay?"I could hear them talking but I couldn't process what they were saying.
I finally snapped out of my thoughts when Sawyer was asking me what's wrong."Oh yeah I'm fine I just don't feel well"
"Oh"He gives Zander a look like he's expecting him to says something.I don't even think Zander noticed because he was staring at me the entire time.While I on the other hand was staring at my food.Maybe I shouldn't eat and he wouldn't have cheated on me.
Don't think that way he doesn't deserve us we need someone better,you don't have to change yourself for anyone.Including your mate.Melanie says.
I wasn't making eye contact with Zander at all.I know I probably looked like crap all I had on was an old grey tshirt and some flannel pants.
I stand up from my chair causing it to make a creaking noise making everyone turn there head towards me.
"Sorry I'm not exactly feeling good today everyone so if you'll excuse me,thank you"I leave my plate on the table and walk to my room.
I'm in a bad place,he was supposed to be my mate who's loves you unconditionally and forever and wholeheartedly.I guess what they say is true a tiger can't change his stripes.
~~~~~(Zanders Pov)~~~~~
All day at breakfast I was staring at her beautiful face.Her eyes were puffy I knew she was crying.But she's trying to put on a brave face she doesn't want me to see her weak.But her crying isn't weak its heartbreaking knowing I'm the cause of it.
She wouldn't make eye contact with me at all.I felt like shit and looked like it too.I didn't even want to get out of bed today but I had to I still had pack duties.
After she left the table I had an announcement to make.I wanted her to be there to but she left before I could so.
"As many of you know that the old age for pack warriors to be accepted is twenty but my Luna,beta and third in command think that the age should go down to eighteen.A lot of people gasp,and I'm not surprised.
"A-aalpha uhh don't you a think maybe be u-uhh that that's a little young?"Someone asks but I couldn't see who.
"No I don't think that is too young with the recent rouges attacks on the other packs we need to be safe"I say In my alpha voice.With that said I leave and go to my room to get ready for school.Yup I still have to go to that.
I throw on some black adidas sweat pants and a white t shirt and my black and white adidas.
I grab my backpack and trudge out of my room into my car driving away.
I get to school and I see Camilla walking in,with Sawyer?What the fuck.
Sawyer?Her car isn't fixed yet?
"Hey why is Sawyer bringing her to school and why the fuck do they look so lovey dovey"I ask Trent walking up to him and some other human basketball players.
"Because she needed a ride"
"Why didn't she ask me"I knew the answer,but I just wanted him to say it again so I can feel a little bit of pain.
"Look man you ju---"the warning bell rings and I roll my eyes walking to my first class while glaring Sawyer down.I know he likes her but Camilla is mine.
The whole week went like this,me glaring at Sawyer from a front.Until Friday.
The first two periods went really slow,so I left after second period.But I had a plan to win back Camilla and it was in full swing.
During school I mind linked Sawyer to bring her to "the special place."Before I had even known Camilla I started building a house for my mate and myself to live in.I didn't want to live in the pack house forever.
It was still in pack territory and had three stories,four bedrooms, two bathrooms,a pool in the back yard,and a basketball court in the basement along with my man cave.It also had an office.
I decorated it myself (with a little help from my mom)but I didn't know how she would like it.
Our room was grey and cream color with a shiny glass chandelier hanging in the middle.I want children someday,someday soon,it's natural for Alphas to want children young.
I wouldn't rush her into that type of thing of course,right now all I can really hope for is for her to forgive me.I can't imagine my life without her I don't care if I haven't known her for long,she's my entire life.I won't live without her.I can't.
