Juliantina

Voicemail

Hi, can't answer the phone right now. Please leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.. beep.

Juliana sighs for the hundredth time today. She has been trying to call Valentina all afternoon.

She's worried that she might come off as annoying after her tenth or was it already her eleventh text message to Valentina, and Juliana definitely doesn't want to act like a needy 'almost-girlfriend'. After all, Valentina had only been gone for three hours.

But Juliana has been having this feeling that Valentina needs her during the first few minutes that they weren't together.

Or maybe she just really wants to hear her voice?

After all, you can't send a text message to someone saying how you cannot stop thinking about them and then goes radio silent for hours.

Hi, can't answer the phone right now. Please leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.. beep.

She tries again, and this time she decides to leave a message.

Juliana clears her throat, suddenly she couldn't form any coherent sentence, its funny how all of a sudden, Juliana feels silly for acting like this.

She is in constant freak out about everything relating to Valentina, its exhausting and yet surprisingly exciting at the same time.

Juliana has always been so sure of her self. When she decides about something, she goes for it. There was no gray area for her, its either a yes or no.

But why does she always seems to think twice when it comes to Valentina?

She would find herself second guessing her decisions when it comes to the other girl. It is frustrating and very so not her.

All of a sudden, it is not only about her mom's, Lupe, safety that she needs to think about.

Because the truth is, Juliana would die if something bad happens to Valentina. She will definitely pull a Romeo and Juliet and not think twice about it.

And that what scares her the most right now is the knowledge that her mom isn't the most important person in her life anymore. And that threw her off balance at first when she realized it.

Is this why her mom couldn't leave El Chino before? Why Lupe, even after that horrible kidnapping, still wants to find him?

Juliana couldn't find it in her heart to be mad at Lupe. She now knows the feeling of being apart from someone you deeply love.

Its funny because those kind of feelings would make her cringe in disgust before, but now deep inside, she wanted El Chino to come back to them, for her mom.

Because how can she be happy with Valentina if her mom is miserable alone? If only Panchito doesn't have his own family, Juliana would have push her mom to give his ex boyfriend another chance. But in reality, even if Panchito is a good guy and so much in love with her mother, it is still unfair to his wife and kids.

Juliana decides that she'll just be honest and get this thing over with.

Hi, can't answer the phone right now. Please leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.. beep.

"Val, I miss you. Please call me back and let me know if you're okay." Juliana sighs, "Te amo."

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Valentina has been shaking so hard after that confrontation with Lucho. Her throat is dry and her hands are icy cold. She couldn't even move from where she was standing.