Hate is a strong word but thats 's the right word for him. He's hurting
me emotionally and mentally. I never
actually saw this coming because 1
thought he was falling for me, 2
thought he was different. That's the other mistake i made thinking he was different from the past guys i've met but yet here goes another heartbreaking situation where i
just cry my eyes out like i was or someone is dying, but instead im crying my eyes because of a fucking mistake again. I've been hurt in the past but not this kind of hurt. He was different, keyword "was" i mean if you have met him, you'd fall for him and you dont even know your falling. I was dumb for not listening to my friends. Grace would have killed me if i said i still like him. Reyhan would have slap me out of the fantasy im in. Jaimee would have made me laugh while i was crying. Adri would have made a dirty joke about him but no my dumbass self was so blind by him that i dont even see myself when im around him. By the time i figured out that i was blind by him was the time where i started falling head over heels. You know what actually hurts? is your over here still fighting for him when in the end somebody already won that's what fucking hurts, i've known him for almost 8 months and im fucking dumb for not realising he was not different from the past guy. I've cried and cried but the pain is still there, i always wonder if i die would this pain go away? But if i die i wouldnt have met my ibsf. Now that i think about it Yanna is still dumb and blind.
