Now i know what your thinking, 'just break up with him'. Well its not that easy. When we first met we were really in love. He was my everything. He loved me, and i loved him just as much, even more. I know this isn't really him. I don't know whats gotten into him. It. scares me. Always living in fear. feeling trapped, no where to go, no one to go to. I want life to be how it was. Happy and carefree. I need help.
I'm hanging out with Kate today and I'm just having an off day. A lot on my mind. I want to tell her. Just let it all out, how i get beat, all the emotional pain I've been through. I cant keep it all inside anymore. I sit her down and say 'I have something i really need to talk about..' she gives me a weird look and says 'Ok'. I take a deep breath and say 'Ok well this isn't exactly easy to say, but for a long time now..Blake has been abu-' I get cut off by my phone ringing with a new message from Blake. He said to get home now. I get up and Kate says 'hey he's been what?' I say 'Ill explain later..' then walk out and drive home with a tight grip on the wheel.
I walk in and no ones there. Then Blake comes stumbling in (drunk as fuck). I hate when he's like this, he becomes even more violent. 'And where have you been at you filthy whore?' he asks, ugh i can smell the alcohol, as i gag a little. 'I was with Kate' i say looking at the floor'. 'Your job is cleaning the house, cooking, and doing whatever I say.' he says stumbling towards me. I take a few steps back, then he slaps me. I look him dead in the eye and say 'why are you doing this to me? dont you love me?' he says 'Of course I do, your mine so im in control of you.'and tries pulling off my shirt as I fight him off and start screaming for him to stop. He keeps trying to pull my clothes off as I burst into tears and keeping telling him to stop. He slaps me and throws me around, I hit the floor and start to feel light headed. He yells at me to stand up, i grab the counter trying to help myself up. As soon as I'm up on my feet he slams me into the door and says 'Now you'll do exactly as i say' as he puts his hands around my neck and I gasp for air. I grab his hands trying to get them off me, and he nails me in the stomach and I drop to the floor, he kicks me and picks me up by my hair and throws me onto the glass table. Glass shards go everywhere and everything goes black.
