MagiKally Blissfully In Love

Everything was okay...until it wasn't ?!

Its been ages i have written something and i had this on my mind since ages. Please read this like a story as its completely FICTION and i request you to please not tag this one shot to either Karan or Krystle this is meant for fiction , please. 

This is what my point of view about how they broke up. so brace yourself i cried while writing this. and honestly speaking haven't reread it for errors. so please spare me if you find any and tell me on comments.

A note to inform you that I want neither of them to be on bad side. Its just a story from my point of view.

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Krystle's pov ~

Its mid night ,and sky is mirroring my mood.Dark but no stars or moon.Empty. This is what I feel right now.I don't know how to react ,what to do or what to believe. Like everything was okay a minute before but now ,in a minute, just few seconds everything is changed.Its like I am alone, alone in this world with no one by side. Why ? Because someone dear to me said goodbye to me. Goodbye ? Ha it was rather a sad bye.What I did to receive such behavior? I am yet to figure it out. 

Few hours ago-

"Hey what a surprise I wasn't expecting you,come" I invited him in."Yeah well I have to talk about something, are your parents home?" he asked confusing me. "umm no , they are spending their night at my grandparents house remember? I told you about this when we had a talk this morning" I replied . "Yeah sorry I forgot" he said looking distressed making me frown."Are you okay? Is something wrong?" I took his hand on mine as we sat on the couch sitting next to each other,but he tried to free his hand making me frown deeper.Something wasn't right. I had a quick adrenaline rush and it wasn't good. Something was to happen and it felt like I wasn't prepared for it. I tried to look onto  his eyes but he averted it to other side."You are scaring me. tell me what's wrong?what is it?" I asked as a shiver ran to spine. "This is what is wrong"He said pointing between us. "What? What do you mean its wrong?You are making me crazy with each passing minute.Can you please stop your silent treatment and explain something?" i said getting angry. "What should I say to you ? What should I explain to you?" He said frustrated palming his face. "Explain me why the heck you are here?Why you creating such distance like I am some stranger?Why are you acting like you don't know me?" I said getting angrier ,my tone going high by each word "What should I tell you? that nothing is going on well. That I don't feel we share same connection as before? That I feel suffocated now? " He said now pacing in my living room making me stunned. Suffocated? That's how he feels? "Karan do you know what you are realize what you are saying" I said , my  voiced choked."That's exactly what I am saying Krysrle D'souza that I feel suffocated with you. I feel like somebody has trapped me somewhere. Where I can't move." He said standing there looking at my face for the first time and i realized i wasn't looking at my Karan, it felt like looking into some stranger's eyes.His eyes were red,like in a alot of pain. I couldn't figure if the pain was of him telling me things or because he felt what he said just now."You feel trapped with me?You think I am holding you up?Can I know the reason why you fell like this ?" I asked cautiously , this time me averting my eyes to look outside the window.It was dark the sun had settled down for the day and somewhere I felt the sun tomorrow might not rise, at least for me. "You know I have been thinking alot about us. About how you are ready to take a step further. How I want to pursue my career,how things are going on.." he sat beside me maintaining quite a distance while i urged to continue."You know I thought about alot about our future but i couldn't see myself in it.I mean look at us now, we are young there's so much to explore, I want to explore more , I don't want to be tied in a relationship now. There's so much to do I never thought I will marry this early, marriage isn't on my cards." he replied now looking at me ,convincing. "Do you think I don't  know that ? Do you think I want to marry now ? this year? really? don't you know everything already? There something else isn't it. Karan we have discussed this n number of times , me and you both know we want to marry but not before i turn 30 . And do you mean by you fell trapped? What did I do to make you feel that way ?" I replied furiously. "this , this is how you make me feel trapped. Its always about you, what you plan is how you want it to happen. I am not ready for this. none of this. not marriage , or the dreams you have for us. I want out" Their he said it crashing my world upside down."I have been thinking hard about us since so long i realized what you want is not what i really want when you were at Dubai , when I had typhoid it got me thinking of what I actually want in my life,  when I use to spend my whole day with my family. I felt like I need a breath of fresh air.I want to spend sometime with my family and then get back to acting ,hosting doing what I Love. " he further said  shocking me. "So you think i don't let you spend time with your family ?I am holding up your career? and you said you have been thinking since I went to Dubai with my parents and friends and you are telling me now ? I really don't get what you are trying to say , how you can say you want out when there's nothing i have done? And if i have explain me , what did i do ? " I shouted at him ,tears sprung on my eyes. I can't take this. "This is the problem Krystle you don't understand , I have to make you understand like a 5 year old that you did this wrong. You are not enough mature yet. And i don't want to be in any kind of relationship now , after what happened with my sister i cant afford to have a relationship like this which is why it has to end. You deserve someone better who will be able to handle all of you till forever" he said again pacing to and from and i could feel headache forming with full force."why now ? all of a sudden ? you know what ? you are scared of the relationships, is that why you never accepted me in public ? is that why you always made an excuse? and are you really blaming me for stopping your career ?how could you even think that ?" i asked angrily. this was taking us now where. "yes this is the reason i never go public, i am not sure about you, i have been thinking alot. i cant let myself be in a relationship , sometimes i think i have tied myself up with you, i  want to do alot but then i have to think twice before taking up roles, i cant go out in media knowing they all will question me about you, i don't get offers if that isn't about you, all this happens because we try to be in an unnamed relationship to the world. Karan is always tagged with Krystle.  Its like people have forgotten who Karan Tacker is. I want to be for sometime. I want to spend my time with my family just us four. " he shouted back not caring how much that hurt. His family was four now, for someone who use to consider me as a part of his family just said that I wasn't something to him. "I don't even know from where this is coming, but you know what ? I am hurt it looks like you never really considered me a part of your family it was always you guys. I was always there for you when you needed me , my family considered you a part of us and what you just said ?  wow i cant believe we are having this conversation now.and talking about your career are you really blaming me ? have i ever interfered in your work? sometimes i don't even know what party you are going to attend , what work you have taken up until you signed something. Are you even listening to yourself?" i have now started pacing while he sat their looking angry. " oh so you will say it  like that? where you were when i had fever and had performance ? where you were when i had typhoid? you were always busy and you also went to Dubai knowing that I wasn't well and how much you enjoyed , wow. and about work, last i remembered you never asked for my opinion for work now. you do what you want but i always tell you what i do at work. you don't help my sister much with her business and now you are busy buying and decorating your own house which you have purchased to live bachelor like you say away from your parents. Their are so many things which you done but i kept on forgiving but i cant do this anymore.We are moving to new home and i want my family to have a fresh start.I am not saying i dont love you because i love you, but now i need space. i need privacy, i want to go out without caring or reporting to someone." he said trying to explain me. "You know what ? This is pointless , i dont even know why we are arguing about this. you do know all the answers you just asked me . and you are kind of accusing me for nothing. And I have apologized like thousands times when i got late for your performance when you were unwell. I went to Dubai because you wanted me to go. You said you didnt had any problem and to enjoy my time with them. And my friends had to come because you were sick ,this was supposed to be our family bonding trip with you and your parents and mine,wasn't it?are you seriously telling me that i never cared?" i was crying by now. this was too  much to handle the person I Love the most in this world is saying that i never care about him or his family . "See Krystle you are clearly not understanding this okay ? You are not perfect fit for my family. you are amazing and i love you but its not the time , i need out and when time comes and we are good enough to marry we might try this again.But this time I want to spend time with my family and i cant handle any relationship right now , there are so many things going on on my family and i would chose my family over you anytime. I am sorry Krystle. for this and everything" he ranted out , he just said that he is choosing his family, the family i use to or they use to considered me a part of. I am numb to move , to say , my mind is still processing with what went wrong. The person i  love never considered my his priority or now  he doesnt consider i dont understand. Yes i too did so many mistakes knowingly unknowingly but I have always apologized , and he let me be. I don't know why he is telling now but hearing this from his mouth i have made my decision " You know what? Good. you want out? Perfect , we are over. just like that.I am sick of hearing things from you" I said settling on the floor crying my heart out. "Krystle listen to me we can try again , i just need space now. i dont want things to pursue now. we have all time in life. we can meet again , we can stay friends till then. please." he replied sitting across me taking my face in his hands. Hands that I Love so much.His face had now tears flowing mirroring mine. He was suffering same like me but he doesn't want to understand anything. He has made up his mind. I wiped my tears with my hands , got up . Now its time to end this, i cant do this i want to curl up and cry till i sleep. "You have already made your decision so mine wouldn't change it. I know you but remember one thing if this is over than their is no coming back , if you are going now there wont be anything for you to come back. Knowing me you already know that I can't be friend to you after all this. So that's out of question.I know you wont change your mind but i want you to think about this , about us. if you still want this over. i am not stopping you. its on your hand now." i said staring at the floor, i dont want to look at him ,i know i will melt ."i know what i am doing Krystle , but know that I Love you ,its just not the right time and even after few days my mind won't change" He said staring at her tears flowing continuously from their eyes."If you think you won't change your mind, the door is over their you can leave . thank you for breaking my heart , for loving me.  Just remember that I always Loved you." I said looking at his face one last time, he came closer kissed my forehead his tears mixing with mine.I cupped his face and hugged him and he hugged me harder after what felt like an eternity we separated ,"I Love you please dont do this" i cried,begged. "its needed, its for good.I Love you too ,stay happy" he said kissing me lightly on lips. "you know you are breaking me right? if you step out of here that means it will be finished i wont be able to talk to you or trust like i do" i said crying "then don't , i wont talk to you too. that's what you want." he said and collected his jacket and car keys from the table "take care,goodbye" he said taking me and kissing my forehead one last time and left leaving me shattered, alone.

I have cried, even though i said i wont talk to him i have called him so many times and it went on voice mail, i don't what to do. Its like someone came and squeezed my heart , i can't take this emptiness , this pain. I want him back , I Love him and he Loves me, why this is to happen ? Why we can't be together. I curl up on my bed with the big bear he gave me on my birthday , i hugged him and cried. the pain is too much. I don't know how much time passed but i tried to call him again, but no response. Then I called one person i knew who will their for me now and dialed her  "Hey Kaavu" I sniffed, "Krystu whats going on ? are you crying ?" she replied alert,i know her.just like i know Karan.i cried thinking about him again "We broke up" i knew she would understand what i meant, she remained silent for seconds "I am coming over ,go clean yourself up we are going to Marine's now. And drink water,for me . Please" she ordered. "Hmm" i replied and shut it off and tried calling him one last time before giving up and went to change. I think this is how it will from now on, empty and alone.I can't believe its over, we broke up.

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comments will be appreciated. 

PS - do not question about why i blamed him or her. Its purely FICTION. 

also, let me know if you want to read Karan's pov at the same time too. i couldn't write that as i had other things to  do now.

Thanks Bye, Love you all ❤