lovely.

lovely. Chp. 1

"Cancer"

The words I wish I never heard that awful sickness you usually see on movies or on commercials and you wish to god that your own child doesn't grab hold of it, but sadly I was one of those unlucky children..

Julia's pov.

Wake up. Take medication. Do chemo. Eat. Rest. Repeat.

That was my routine every single day, I couldn't handle it ever since I've been diagnosed life has gone too shit. All I can do is lay here in this very uncomfortable bed and just stare out the window and wait for my mother too come back I don't know where she goes but she just disappeared after we got the news I honestly think it's quite depressing really I mean I'm a cancer patient, I'm dying shouldn't my mother be here with me? I feel the tears form in my eyes but they quickly stop as I hear the door open I wipe my eyes and look at the door. The nurse walks in, my nurse patty she's pretty chill really I enjoy having her in the room with me but this time she has another bed and more chemo along with one of those machines. "Julia.." she says quietly I give her my full attention she has a worried yet calming expression. "We have too do another cat scan sweetheart and more chemo" I sigh at this and nod I didn't really talk much I mean who would after finding out you have cancer. Patty helps me onto the other bed hooking me up too the machine and inserting the chemo into my I.V I laid back as she started pushing me out, now some cancer kids were allowed too walk to the cat scan but me I wasn't allowed they said I was too weak and exercise would harm me even more maybe one day. I look around seeing the same kids drawings on the walls, a few cancer kids walking around, and then me and this kid made eye contact for a bit and he looked away walking with his friend again I looked forward and breathed in as much as I could my cancer is stage three in my right lung, spinal cord, and my liver. Since the cancer is in my right lung it makes it hard too breathe at times we make it into the room two doctors help me off the bed and under the big machine when I first got a cat scan I was scared I didn't know what it would do but after a few times I'm used too it's loud noise the worst part about cat scans is when they say hold you're breath and having my one lung that works kinda it makes it hard. Of course there was no changes it still said the same cancer: positive they helped me back onto my "bed" and patty came in and started pushing me out back too my room. "How did it go?" She always asks the same thing after every cat scan hoping there is a change I shake my head no she frowns and sighs. "I'm sorry Julia that you have too go through this, but keep strong okay?" She always said positive things to me it makes me feel a bit better. We get too the room and same thing she helps me into the bed rehooking me back up and adding the new chemo I hated this place sure it's nice but I can't stand the medication the doctors are just glad I'm not hacking up blood..yet I sigh somehow exhausted and I didn't do anything last time I saw my face in a mirror it looked awful pale face and dark circles. I snap out of thought when i feel pattys hand on mine. "Sweetheart would you like anything too eat it's lunch time you need some food" I look at her and look back down shaking my head I didn't have the appetite too eat she sighed and patted my hand. "How about this later when I'm on lunch break I can bring two cups of ice cream and we can watch a movie together?" I looked up again and smiled a bit nodding she smiled back walking out. "Get some rest dear" she said and closed the door I could hear her heels click away I laid back looking at the roof top my eyes felt heavy I didn't want to sleep but i can't fight my sleep instantly I fall into a deep slumber, my dream world where I can escape this world. But when I awake I know I'm gonna wake up too the smell of the hospital and chemo but I might as well enjoy this.

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809 words! yeah I know not that much but that was chapter one of lovely hope you enjoyed