Dear Soulmate

Part 2: The Letters

Sophomore year 2008-2009

October 18, 2008

Dear Soulmate,

You drive me crazy sometimes you know that? But like in a good way. I want to yell at you all the time, but only in the sense of a good debate. I feel like no topic is off limits when I talk to you. I can't talk to my friends like that. They aren't the kinds of people you can tell the deep, dark stuff to. They're the friends you can ask if your shoes match your outfit.

November 19, 2008

Dear Soulmate,

I can't believe I am saying this, but I am really enjoying working on this poetry unit together. I must admit, at first I was less than thrilled. But now, I have come to truly enjoy our meetings under the maple tree on the back side of campus.

December 8, 2008

Dear Soulmate,

I just wanted to say thank you for skipping last period with me and letting me drone on and on about my parents today. I really needed to get all that shit out. Everything has been just so messed up since my dad left.

Now that the holidays are coming, my house feels so empty. But sitting with you under that tree, I felt free. Like I could finally be me.

December 12, 2008

Dear Soulmate,

I'm not sure if I should apologize for kissing you or not. Part of me thinks I should because we can't be a couple. We're just too different. Then the other part of me feels like it was perfect. Like we are meant to be together.

Meet me under the maple tree today after school. I have an idea...

February 9, 2009

Dear Soulmate,

I've noticed that we wave hello to each other between classes from across the campus even though we just had a class together 45 minutes before. It's like I can't go even an hour without seeing you or communicating with you.

To be honest, I search for your face in the crowd between classes. I know the path you take and I scan it for your face everyday. I love the little smirk you send my way when our eyes meet across the crowded quad. The little wave of your fingers makes my heart flutter just a little bit and catch in my throat for a second as I feel my cheeks blush just a little. It's a feeling I look forward to because it is you who gives it to me and I love it even more because no one else knows about us.

I love our secret little relationship. I love meeting you after school behind the big oak tree just outside the football field. I love climbing and sitting in that tree with you. I love the way you secretly watch me during my soccer practice, pretending not to give a shit. I bet you feel the same when I pretend not to watch you during your baseball practices.

I haven't told anyone that we are dating. They wouldn't understand. Hell, I don't even understand it. On paper, you're not even close to being my type. All I know is that I am happy. You make me happy, in so many twisted teenage ways and for now, this is what I want. You are what I want.

May 7, 2009

Dear Soulmate,

I can't believe that crotch of a teacher separated us! What an asshole! We weren't even sharing answers. It wasn't even a test. It was class work for crap sakes.

I do also want to apologize for throwing my date in your face. In truth the date was pretty amazing, but you should know there is nothing better than spending time with you. I only went on the date to keep up appearances. I couldn't keep saying no. People would have gotten suspicious. I know you don't care if people know we're together, but I'm just not ready for that.