have you ever felt like you haven't belonged somewhere? like, maybe you used to. actually, you know you used to. you know that at one point in time you were happy and okay and you were doing good, but now you don't feel like you fit anywhere. there's splurges where you think, "finally, i can talk to someone and tell them and make them understand so i don't have to keep feeling this way," but it's false hope. it isn't the real thing and you're not sure if you're ever going to feel like you're wanted somewhere and that you fit in.
also, you'll confide in people and then they'll promise that they wouldn't dream of holding this thing against you or like, being mean about it... and then they are mean about it and they use it against you. it may seem like a stupid thing to them, but it's not to you and it just hurts a lot and it's annoying. it's so damn annoying and you just don't know how to feel about that person anymore because you still really want to be friends with them because you can't remember a time when you weren't friends with them and they're like family to you, but they just keep doing things to you that make you think that maybe you really don't actually want to be friends with them anymore. and so now you're double upset because you don't want to lose the person that already caused you to be upset and you just don't know what to think anymore.
and you feel like you can't really talk about it with anyone else because they won't understand and they never do. they say they do, but they don't. maybe they feel it a little bit but its overwhelming to you and you don't know what to do about anything anymore because nothing feels quite right.
and everything's a mess and you hope and pray to God or any higher power looking out for you that things get better and you try staying positive but it's not working out for you.
and you feel like you hate yourself but then you're thinking "no, i don't hate myself. i cant hate.. me," but you have this really bad feeling and you're not really sure what you feel anymore.
and maybe you're just being melodramatic. maybe its just part of being a teenager. but if this is the case, i'm so sick and tired of being a teenager because it isn't fun. its no fun at all.
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Random"and maybe you're just being melodramatic. maybe its just part of being a teenager. but if this is the case, i'm so sick and tired of being a teenager because it isn't fun. its no fun at all."
