living with my crush <3
Background-
hey my name is Laura. Laura Smith. i'm not the prettiest girl you will ever meet but i never considered myself ugly. the popular girls at my school would beg to differ. it has not been a good year.
my parents are in the army so i'm never really staying at a school for a long period of time. It's happened so often that ilve gotten used to it. but ever since i transferred to Westown high it's been hard for me to make friends. Everyone has known eachother for a long period of time and i just can't find anyone willing to be my friend.
chapter one
Laura's pov-
"LAURA!!!LAURA WAKE UP!" I hear my mom yelling into my ears. I shudder as i wipe my eyes getting adjusted to the light. My mom is sobbing uncontrollably and can't seem to look me in my eyes. " mom..... what's wrong" i say. i repeat my self as she stays silent with tears streaming down her face. "it's your dad Olivia. He's gone. He was in battle last night and they got him while he was vonerable." my mom said choking down her tears. my heart sank and ripped into a million pieces. i started crying and i couldnt stop screaming. "NOO! HE CANT BE GONE." i said. "I NEVER EVEN SAID GOODBYE!" those were the last words i said before shutting down. i stopped crying and having emotions. i stopped getting happy, mad, excited, or surprised. It was like life didn't have a meaning and i didnt have a purpose. i felt empty. that was until my mom came home with Landon who had just lost a parent in the army and needed a place to stay at for the rest of the year. First i didnt let Landon get close to me but i realized im the only one who really understands what he's going through and i need to be there for him. After one day of talking we instantly became close. We had a lot of the same interests and we could understand eachother childhoods and our wishes and dreams. One night me and Landon had a super deep conversation about what our initial reactions were when we lost a parent. He told me about how he started drinking away his pains and how he got so bad to where he would hurt the ones he loved the most. That was surprising because even though Landon looks strong his heart is so big and he would never hurt a fly.I showed him my diary for the days after my dad passed away. it read-
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Dear Laura,
Life is miserable and has no meanings or point. you should just end it all to take away the pain.it's unbearable and i feel like i cant move on. every day i miss him more and more and i cant miss him anymore. i can't. i dont want to. he never even said goodbye.
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After i showed landon my diary he looked with shock. He wondered why i tried to make him feel better when i was at my lowest point. from there we just had a heart to heart. in those moments i realized that Landon was the only one who would every truly understand me. that thought comforted me. he comforted me.
